I remember standing there, shaking in the cold,
A fire in my chest, a dream I had to hold.
For the first time in my life I felt alive,
Not just someone trying hard to survive.
Boots on the ground, but my soul could fly,
I found a reason I would never question why.
Every breath had meaning, every scar was mine,
For once in my life… I was finally fine.
There’s a voice inside my head that says I belong,
And I believed it all along…
Now I wake up screaming into empty nights,
Chasing shadows of who I used to be inside.
Everything I loved is buried in the past,
I’m a broken body… that couldn’t last.
I’d give anything just to feel it again,
Even for a second, even just pretend.
But every dream I have is tearing me apart,
‘Cause I wake up… and it dies in my arms.
They say “move on,” like it’s easy to do,
Like I can replace what I lost with something new.
One fall, one moment — that’s all it took,
Now my whole damn life is an empty book.
My leg might heal, but my mind never will,
There’s a war inside me that’s raging still.
I was strong… or at least that’s what I knew,
Till the day that everything I was got torn in two.
They said “you’ll find another way,”
But they took the only one that made me stay…
Now I wake up screaming into empty nights,
Chasing shadows of who I used to be inside.
Everything I loved is buried in the past,
I’m a broken body… that couldn’t last.
I’d give anything just to feel it again,
Even for a second, even just pretend.
But every dream I have is tearing me apart,
‘Cause I wake up… and it dies in my arms.
This wasn’t just a dream — it was my life,
The only place where I survived.
It gave me light… it gave me breath,
Now I’m just waiting here with what is left.
Tell me where do I go when the war is gone?
When the only place I belonged moved on?
Half of me is still back there…
And I’m just a ghost standing anywhere.
I gave it everything I had…
And it still wasn’t enough.
Now I’m stuck in a life…
That I never chose.
Now I wake up screaming into empty nights,
Drowning slowly in the fading light.
Everything I was is gone with the flame,
And I don’t even recognize my name.
I’d give my soul just to go back again,
To feel alive… to feel something again.
But morning comes and rips it apart…
Reminds me I’m just a shell with a beating heart.
I see it all when I close my eyes…
But it fades away with the morning light.
And every time I try to hold on…
I wake up… alone.
