Regret

I didn’t see it clearly until you were gone.

Back then, I carried so much weight inside our connection.

I let my insecurities speak louder than my love.

The truth is, I always saw you as someone I could never truly have.

You had this light… this presence…

something rare and untouchable.

You could read me without a word,

and that terrified me.

I never felt like your equal.

Being with you came with this quiet pressure,

because deep down, I feared one day

you’d realize you could do better.

So even when I wanted to give you all of me,

I held back.

I guarded myself…

thinking I was protecting my heart,

but in reality, I was pushing you away.

And then… you walked away.

Not because you found someone else.

Not because you wanted a different love.

But because I stopped fighting for you.

I stopped showing up.

I stopped giving you the effort you deserved.

You were the one who gave everything.

You were the one who stayed open,

vulnerable; ready to love me without limits.

And I was the one who let you stand there alone.

I see now…

you didn’t just leave me…

I left you first when I stopped trying.

And that will always be my greatest regret.