Dreaming

I lay on the floor with a knife inside my gut
When you walk in the door
Seeing crimson running down my gut
You yelped a horrific cry as you try to get me aid
Im sorry for the disappointment
Im sorry for everything 
But then I wake up to reality
Am I really ok?
Why do you care so much?
Life us what's killing me
People hate me so much
And I hate me too
No one has to know they say
Don't ever call them 

I look at the noose
Before I go for a swing
But then you give me a call to ask me for something again
And then I hang up and then myself
But then I wake up again
A dream that felt all to real
Maybe its a sign to do it
Maybe its what I needed 

I write the note and leave it on the fridge
As I look at myself one last time
And I start to cry again
Im sorry for everything 
Maybe you would've been better off without me
This isnt for attention but a decision I made
A couple months ago
You tried your best to help me out 
But my time has run out 
Maybe i'll see you in the next life
But then I woke up again 

4/4 time signature, shoegaze, melancholic, slow guitars, dreamlike, dark, ambient