(Intro)
can’t shut it up
can’t get away
even silence feels too loud
i’m stuck in here
(Verse 1)
I wake up inside my head
already arguing with myself
every thought talks over the last
no exit, no mute, no help
I replay things that don’t matter
like they’re evidence in court
I’m guilty before the day begins
tired of fighting thoughts I can’t abort
(Pre-Chorus)
they say “breathe”
like that fixes it
like air can silence this
(Chorus)
I hate being me
I hate being in my head
every second feels crowded
by the things I never said
I hate being me
I can’t outrun my mind
I don’t need saving
I just want a break from inside
(Verse 2)
I overthink every silence
read tone that isn’t there
build disasters out of nothing
and then live inside the scare
I want to switch myself off
just long enough to rest
but even sleep won’t take me
my thoughts follow to the bed
(Pre-Chorus)
people say “you’re fine”
like it’s visible
like this noise is optional
(Chorus)
I hate being me
I hate being in my head
every moment is a battle
with the things I never said
I hate being me
I can’t shut it down
I smile in real life
while my mind tears me around
(Bridge)
I don’t want to disappear
I just don’t want to be here
inside this skull
inside this loop
no peace
no pause
just me vs me
(Break)
I wish I could crawl out
leave my thoughts behind
borrow someone else’s quiet
for a night
(Chorus)
I hate being me
but I’m still breathing
so I guess I stay
I hate being me
but I don’t know another way
if there’s a version of me
that doesn’t hurt like this
tell me where she is
(Outro)
still stuck
still loud
still me
Beexii
