I Hate Being Me

(Intro)

can’t shut it up

can’t get away

even silence feels too loud

i’m stuck in here

(Verse 1)

I wake up inside my head

already arguing with myself

every thought talks over the last

no exit, no mute, no help

I replay things that don’t matter

like they’re evidence in court

I’m guilty before the day begins

tired of fighting thoughts I can’t abort

(Pre-Chorus)

they say “breathe”

like that fixes it

like air can silence this

(Chorus)

I hate being me

I hate being in my head

every second feels crowded

by the things I never said

I hate being me

I can’t outrun my mind

I don’t need saving

I just want a break from inside

(Verse 2)

I overthink every silence

read tone that isn’t there

build disasters out of nothing

and then live inside the scare

I want to switch myself off

just long enough to rest

but even sleep won’t take me

my thoughts follow to the bed

(Pre-Chorus)

people say “you’re fine”

like it’s visible

like this noise is optional

(Chorus)

I hate being me

I hate being in my head

every moment is a battle

with the things I never said

I hate being me

I can’t shut it down

I smile in real life

while my mind tears me around

(Bridge)

I don’t want to disappear

I just don’t want to be here

inside this skull

inside this loop

no peace

no pause

just me vs me

(Break)

I wish I could crawl out

leave my thoughts behind

borrow someone else’s quiet

for a night

(Chorus)

I hate being me

but I’m still breathing

so I guess I stay

I hate being me

but I don’t know another way

if there’s a version of me

that doesn’t hurt like this

tell me where she is

(Outro)

still stuck

still loud

still me