[Verse 1]
Teeth on edge
tongue tastes rust
Scroll through hell
like it’s just a little crush
Heart rate racing
but I barely even move
Eyes dry, mind loud
nothing left to prove
Laugh at nothing
then I choke it back
Jokes feel jagged
in my cul-de-sac
Room full of ghosts
on the group chat screen
Typing "I’m fine"
as I start to lean
[Chorus]
I’m stuck between the panic and the pit
Too numb to cry, too wired to quit
One side screaming, other side won’t speak
I’m laughing while I’m falling
laughing while I’m falling
I’m stuck between the panic and the pit
Hands on my face like this is it
One vein frozen, one vein’s on repeat
I’m laughing while I’m falling
laughing while I’m falling
[Verse 2]
Wake up shaking
but I cannot wake
Stare at the ceiling
till the shadows break
Every thought a car crash
in my skull
Smile too wide
till the muscles pull
Call you up
then I kill the call
Want you close
but I build that wall
Half of me sinking
half about to spin
Hold my breath
just to feel my skin
[Chorus]
I’m stuck between the panic and the pit
Too numb to cry, too wired to quit
One side screaming, other side won’t speak
I’m laughing while I’m falling
laughing while I’m falling
I’m stuck between the panic and the pit
Hands on my face like this is it
One vein frozen, one vein’s on repeat
I’m laughing while I’m falling
laughing while I’m falling
[Bridge]
[Beat drops to sparse bass and distant synth swells]
Head in my hands
pulse in my teeth
Can’t tell the nightmare
from the relief
(ha) little twitch
then the world goes slow
If I let go now
would it overflow?
I’m not okay
but I’m not all wrong
Too tired for tears
too wired for calm
Halfway to crash
halfway to cheer
If I disappear
would I still be here?
[Chorus]
I’m stuck between the panic and the pit
Too numb to cry, too wired to quit
One side screaming, other side won’t speak
I’m laughing while I’m falling
laughing while I’m falling
I’m stuck between the panic and the pit
Hands on my face like this is it
One vein frozen, one vein’s on repeat
I’m laughing while I’m falling
laughing while I’m falling