[Intro]
static hum…
heartbeat off…
can’t feel… can’t think…
[Verse 1]
I wake up in pieces, scattered on the floor,
world spinning too fast, every knock on the door
echoes like blame, like I’m already broken,
every word a cut, every glance a token.
I move through the day, hollow behind my eyes,
smiling like I’m fine while everything dies.
Hands shake, chest tight, screaming inside,
I’m here, but my soul’s running, trying to hide.
[Pre-Chorus]
And I hate it, hate it, hate it —
the world keeps going while I stall.
I fight, I bleed, I’m invisible,
trapped inside these walls.
[Chorus]
I’m angry and quiet, I’m lost and loud,
I’m here in the crowd but I’m not allowed.
Everything hurts and nothing makes sense,
life keeps hitting — I can’t pay the rent.
I’m shards of me scattered, alone in the storm,
trying to survive in a body I can’t transform.
[Verse 2]
They think I’m strong, they think I can take it,
they don’t see the nights I can’t fake it.
Every ex, every lie, every “it’s fine,”
stacking up inside me, a jagged line.
I’m screaming in silence, yelling in the dark,
trying to find my place, trying to leave a mark.
But luck’s never mine, just hits over and over,
I’m drowning in memories I can’t sober.
[Pre-Chorus]
And I hate it, hate it, hate it —
the world keeps spinning like I don’t exist.
I claw, I fight, I’m fading again,
lost in the fog, lost in the mist.
[Chorus]
I’m angry and quiet, I’m lost and loud,
I’m here in the crowd but I’m not allowed.
Everything hurts and nothing makes sense,
life keeps hitting — I can’t pay the rent.
I’m shards of me scattered, alone in the storm,
trying to survive in a body I can’t transform.
[Bridge]
I dissociate, watch myself go,
numb in the echo of every blow.
Anger burns, and sorrow claws,
I want to vanish but I’m bound by laws —
laws of survival, laws of pain,
laws of my heart bleeding in vain.
grrr…
shards…
static…
can’t…
can’t…
breathe…
[Chorus]
I’m angry and quiet, I’m lost and loud,
I’m here in the crowd but I’m not allowed.
Everything hurts and nothing makes sense,
life keeps hitting — I can’t pay the rent.
I’m shards of me scattered, alone in the storm,
trying to survive in a body I can’t transform.
[Outro]
heartbeat muted…
eyes closed…
just fragments…
just me…
Beexii
