Inside of me, I didn’t want you,
but I wasn’t allowed to scream.
I cried alone in silence,
all the light was gone,
only darkness stayed with me.
I had no strength to say “no”,
I stayed quiet, swallowed fear.
You didn’t want to know the truth,
you let me suffer year by year.
While I was sleeping, you took it all,
even when I didn’t want it — you didn’t stop.
You stole my smile, you stole my voice,
now everything inside is lost.
Where am I now in all of this?
Am I fog, a wall, a broken door?
My hope is gone, I’m standing still —
I can’t do this anymore.
Too much time, too many tears,
running from truth, drowning in fears.
Same roof, but we’re not the same,
you’re losing me, I’m losing your name.
I call your name, you’re not there,
I stay silent, pretending I don’t care.
If love is war with no one saved,
tell me now — who lost everything?
You told me:
Why are you killing me with messages?
Why do you want me to feel the pain?
Why don’t you calm down and let it go?
I really can’t understand your way.
You keep touching the past,
you say it’s breaking us apart.
You’re the one who ruined everything,
you keep putting salt on every scar.
I know I made mistakes, I know,
but I don’t know how to carry this weight.
So I escape into games and noise,
pretending everything is okay.
While you’re crying alone at home,
I laugh, I hide, I play the role.
Maybe I’m hurting, maybe I’m not —
but I never let it show.
Too much time has been wasted.
I don’t know if I want peace,
but I know I can’t stay like this.
If love means disappearing —
this time, I choose me. Not us , me..just me...
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