I’m Choosin Me

🌫 INTRO (4–8 bars – dark pad + low 808 hum)

(Soft, breathy. Almost whispered. Close mic.)

They ask me, “Are you good?”
(soft pause)
I say, “Yeah, I’m fine,”

(Beat not fully in yet — just ambient bass rumble.)

🎙 VERSE 1 — Half-Spoken / Melodic Rap Flow

(Soft kick enters. Light hi-hats.)

They ask me, “Are you good?” I say, “Yeah, I’m fine,”
But my throat forgets the words every time.
I used to scream in silence, survive on pretend,
Now I’m learning how to speak again.

(808 slides in subtle)

Years of chaos felt like home,
Love felt loud, pain felt known.
Hands that held me didn’t hold me right,
I confused survival with butterflies at night.

(Let the last word “night” stretch slightly.)

🔥 PRE-CHORUS — Build Emotion

(Add snare. Bass gets deeper.)

Now I found someone gentle, someone kind,
But my body still flinches in my mind.
He don’t try to change me, don’t raise his tone,
But peace feels foreign… it don’t feel like home.

(Harmony layer on “foreign” and “home.”)

💥 CHORUS — FULL BEAT DROP (Heavy 808, Strong Kick)

I don’t wanna be touched right now,
Don’t kiss my scars, don’t ask me how.
I don’t wanna be alone, but I need my space,
I’m finally looking my trauma in the face.

(More melodic here — sing with power.)

I thought love was the answer I’d need,
But loving myself is planting the seed.
This beautiful journey hurts somehow…
I’m choosing me first — I’m learning how.

Add background vocal: “Learning how…” echo.

🎤 VERSE 2 — Rap Flow, More Rhythm

(Hi-hats faster. Bass stronger.)

Used to think passion meant pain,
If it didn’t hurt, it didn’t hit the same.
Toxic felt normal, chaos felt right,
Now I’m choosing peace over fights.

(Slight pause.)

They used my body, called it love,
I was drowning but praying above.
Lost in addiction, lost in fear,
Now God’s voice getting louder in my ear.

(Flow tighter here.)

I’m rebuilding bridges I let burn down,
Wiping old tears, no longer drown.
That little girl deserved protection,
Now I’m giving her resurrection.

Let “resurrection” ride the beat.

🌙 BRIDGE — Strip Beat Back

(Piano + soft sub bass only.)

More important than love is knowing my name,
Not the one trauma tried to claim.
More important than kisses at night
Is sleeping alone and feeling alright.

(Soft harmony under last line.)

💎 FINAL CHORUS — Full Emotional Release

(All drums + stacked vocals + heavy 808)

I don’t wanna rush what’s meant to stay,
If he’s real, he won’t run away.
I’m not broken — I’m becoming whole,
Healing my body, spirit, soul.

(Stronger delivery — confident.)

Love looks different for everyone’s story,
That’s the beauty, that’s the glory.
If it’s meant for me, it’ll still be true…
But right now, I’m choosing me over you.

Background ad-libs:
“Choosing me…”
“Becoming whole…”
“Over you…”

(Let bass fade like a heartbeat.)

Female rap-heavy R&B, deep 808 bass, hard kick, dark minor key, intense vibe, smooth melodic hook, emotional flow.