[HOOK]
As I sit back and take a dose for a horse (so high)
I start to realize everyday I have no remorse(not at all)
But it’s okay I love how this shit feels I’ll let it run its course(no turns)
Even if Cupid left me with this unrelenting force(so strong)
Put on my seat belt for loves crash course(hold on)
What will I do with what feels like the devil’s powers(so strong)
Maybe go back to every bridge I’ve burned and plant some flowers (grow)
Can’t go to sleep I’ve been so high for hours (hours)
Stand strong so no one can call me a coward(off the power)
Even if it’s from this substance powder(high for hours)
[VERSE]
First time I hit it, it felt like the world finally clicked,
Like every dark thought in my head got picked up and fixed.
I laughed at the chaos, thought I finally found peace,
Riding shotgun with danger while the noise in me ceased.
Told myself this was living, this fire in my chest,
Something louder than heartbreak keeping me from rest.
Night after night, I chased that spark through my veins,
Not knowing every high was writing out the next page of my pain.
But back then, it felt perfect — like nothing could go wrong,
A kid playing with storms thinking thunder was a song.
[HOOK]
As I sit back and take a dose for a horse (so high)
I start to realize everyday I have no remorse(not at all)
But it’s okay I love how this shit feels I’ll let it run its course(no turns)
Even if Cupid left me with this unrelenting force(so strong)
Put on my seat belt for loves crash course(hold on)
What will I do with what feels like the devil’s powers(so strong)
Maybe go back to every bridge I’ve burned and plant some flowers (grow)
Can’t go to sleep I’ve been so high for hours (hours)
Stand strong so no one can call me a coward(off the power)
Even if it’s from this substance powder(high for hours)
[VERSE 2]
Then the story shifted — mornings hit like a truck,
Woke up sweating through clothes, praying for a little luck.
Friends stopped calling, my phone stayed dark for days,
I kept lying to myself saying “I’m fine,” in smaller ways.
I’d stare at the mirror and swear someone else looked back,
Eyes red, pulse fast, mind fading through the cracks.
The same high that once saved me now chained me to the floor,
A monster I’d fed too long clawing for more.
And I realized somewhere in the haze I lost my name,
Lost the kid I was chasing thrills in the flame.
[OUTRO]
Now the room starts swaying, breathing getting thin,
Like the last chapter closing while I’m trapped within.
Heart beating slower, everything drifting out of frame,
The world turning quiet as it forgets my name.
I reach for the light switch but my hand won’t move,
This is where every choice I made starts finding its proof.
No rewind, no reset, no prayer to borrow—
[HOOK ]
As I sit back and take a dose for a horse
I start to realize everyday I have no remorse
But it’s okay I love how this shit feels I’ll let it run its course
Even if Cupid left me with this unrelenting force
Put on my seat belt for lo
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