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it's midnight u know it meen

I'm starting to think that it's all my fault

All the negative things that I said is me is my fault I thinking I'm the one who the blame that I put though hell all by myself again again again 24/7 I just want someone see what I deel with myself I wanted to give up my life I still do. Don't ask God he going do the same thing like my sister she glazz him to much. My parents think I'm fine but I'm not. Why do i have there's feelings I don't want anymore to be stress out. I just wanted to be free but I can't.

All my female cuzins thinking I'm fine. And trhy think trying to help it make sense better it doses.

But idk anything it works.

I just realized my life is getting boring as I get a order. Everything now is getting boring even outside and inside too. This is why I sit inside 24/7 bc on social media and blasts music, eat good. The only time I go outside is sports or to going out for dinner or movies.

NIKO this is GEM, Lesley,, alex, I wanted to say I'm. Sorry that u going through so much pain I wish I was there for all the moments but gem she be then one try to help this most I might not be the best person to understand this feelings but I know hopefully u find the one who u looking for.

yo it's your boy Mathew I'm sorry that did not know the whole truth about this thing I try my best to help you too not just gem. I'm. Here let all. Out my bro.

Thank you for all the support. But it's my fault everything it is I'm. Just terrible person and or even musical person too I know I'm. Being negative person Right now. But it's midnight I have to suffer in silence tho .

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Other people will say it's not your fault I knew u suffering in pain u got used to being Heart broken and people stab your back with your all kindness and compassion. U need someone who need to understand and hold you says all those songs that u makeed this is real. Life people can relate to this man so stop blaming on yourself That's your demon talking that part of you we like and love about you u not going to die any time soon.

I know what u going to say in some point u going to die in fount of us in our arms but the only person who die with you is gem or even my mom mybe tho. We don't know who gonna die with you but u not alone.

Dam thank alllll of this. Man I do have support. U right i might die but not with others I might not well. We don't know I don't want anyone to kill themselves for me let me die in piece. Bc I don't want see other cry or do deeth

Good NIGHt . This is for the night. And this for Mr Gavin to her this in school. I think I know he might say i don't know.