Some days feel impossible.
The weight of grief presses down so hard it steals my breath before the day even starts. There are moments when I want to collapse completely, to scream, to let the world see how broken I really am
instead of pretending I'm holding it together. Carrying this kind of pain is exhausting, and some days I don't feel equipped for it at all.
But then I think of you. And even when everything in me wants to fall apart, I force myself to stand. I take steps when my body wants to curl up and disappear.
I move forward not because it feels right, but because stopping feels like losing you all over again.
Getting through the day becomes an act of effort, not strength.
[chorus]
I try to hold myself together for you.
Not because I think I owe the world resilience, but because you showed me how to keep going when life was unfair.
You carried weight without making it loud.
You faced hard days without quitting.
The love you gave me still lives inside me, and it deserves more than me giving up
when things hurt the most.
[verse]
So I stand a little straighter, even when my knees are shaking.
I wipe my tears even though they never fully stop.
I smile when I'm expected to, even while something inside me is still breaking quietly. None of it comes naturally.
None of it feels heroic.
None of it feels real.
[chorus]
I try to hold myself together for you.
Not because I think I owe the world resilience, but because you showed me how to keep going when life was unfair.
You carried weight without making it loud.
You faced hard days without quitting.
The love you gave me still lives inside me, and it deserves more than me giving up
when things hurt the most.
[bridge]
It's not because I'm brave.
It's not because I've healed or moved on.
It's because I carry you with me. Because your presence still guides me in ways I didn't expect.
I want to live in a way that would make you proud, even on the days I barely recognize myself.
[chorus]
I try to hold myself together for you.
Not because I think I owe the world resilience, but because you showed me how to keep going when life was unfair.
You carried weight without making it loud.
You faced hard days without quitting.
The love you gave me still lives inside me, and it deserves more than me giving up
when things hurt the most.
[outtro]
The truth is, I don't always get it right.
I'm not always strong.
Most days, I'm just surviving and hoping that's enough.
But every small piece of strength I find, every breath I manage to take when it feels impossible, is for you.
Because of you.
I have something to look forward to.
I will never truly be alone.
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