[Verse 1] I'm falling in slow motion, the walls are closing in My heart beats like broken bass, too fast, too empty Thoughts dance in a ring like shards of glass Every turn cuts deeper – I don't want to scream anymore The mirror lies to me with strangers' eyes Says: "You haven't been at home here for a long time" I count scratches on my soul like notches Each one a date when I almost broke [Pre-Chorus] And yet somewhere deep down something still flickers that can't be extinguished [Chorus] I'm falling deep – yeah, damn deep But I still have bones Still teeth Still this fucking willpower that refuses to die I'm falling deep – the floor is concrete But I beat my fists bloody until something inside me starts beating again like a human being [Verse 2] The pills are like chains And like a life preserver at the same time Some days I swallow hope, some only chemicals The diagnoses pile up like bills in the mailbox Each one bears a stamp: "chronic – incurable – face it" Friends grow quieter, some turn away "You just have to think positively" – thanks, asshole, really But some nights I still call and someone answers – that alone sometimes keeps me alive [Bridge] There's no shortcut No final boss fight with epic music Just repetition Getting up again Showing teeth again Breathing again, even though the air tastes like lead [Chorus – a little louder, rougher] I fall deep – screw how deep But I crawl back into the light with broken nails Blood in my mouth, dirt on my face and this madness in my head that suddenly screams: "Not yet! Not by a long shot!" [Verse 3 – quieter, almost whispered] Sometimes success is just that I brushed my teeth today that I got out of bed that I said "no" to the impulse that wanted to throw me out the window Sometimes winning is simply still being there when all the other voices have long since left [final chorus – with all my might] I fall deep – yes, deep again and again But the way up consists of exactly these shitty little steps that no one sees that no one applauds that only I feel The key isn't talent not luck not the right therapy alone The key is: I want. And more than anything else in this shitty world, I want to live – I want to stay – I want to become. [Outro – only voice & soft breathing] So fall deep, my heart I'm taking a running start in free fall And someday someday I'll spread my wings …even if they're in tatters.

Depth murmur 2 (Emotion)