Already dead

Every one leaves 
But they don’t want me to leave them too 
Like my name’s something nobody wants to hold
You hollow me out, i welcome to my home 
Then leave me here all alone
But if I drift off, if I loosen my grip—
You panic, like I’m something you need to keep
I got a gun to my head 
Yall beg and plead 
Then vanish like I was a temporary fix
But God forbid I try doing the same
You chain me to ghosts while you walk away clean 
So I stay… even when part of me dies
I Bite my tongue till it starts to show
I learn how to die without making a sound
Just to keep you all around
Everyone leaves me
But they still come back when they bleed
Like I’m something they need
I let you live inside my chest
Now I’m a grave with no rest
I stitched up your chaos with parts of my soul
Now I’m unraveling out of control
I gave you a home in the pit of my chest
Now it echoes your name like a sickness that spreads Don’t ask me to stay if you’re halfway gone
Don’t call this love if it feels this wrong
Don’t say my name like it means a thing
If I’m just another cut you don’t feel 
I swallow my voice just to keep you near
Turn pain into something you wanna hear
I tear out pieces, I make them yours
Now I don’t know what I’m living for
Everyone leaves me…
So I stopped trying to stay
Started fading away
And the worst part is…
No one even noticed
I was already dead

Haunting heavy base