[Verse 1]
Met you on a Tuesday
Met him on a Friday night
Same cheap perfume
Same black eyeliner smear
One rolled the paper
One poured the plastic cup
I lost my balance
Somewhere between both touch
You call me “baby”
He calls me by my full name
Both of you smiling
While I’m throwing up in the sink
[Chorus]
I’m in love with both of your ghosts
Two rings on my nightstand, I choke
One hand on my throat
One hand on my hope
If I choose one
Does the other one haunt me forever
Or do I drink ‘til I don’t know the difference
Do I drink ‘til I don’t wake up
[Verse 2]
White dress saved
In a box at my mom’s place
Sat on her floor
Crying in a veil and lace
Text from you
“Come through, I miss your face”
Call from him
“Answer, I’m outside your place”
Backseat promises
Bathroom kisses
Little blue tablets
Under my tongue
You say “let’s run away”
He says “let’s start a family”
I nod to both
Then I’m gone
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
Pills in the soap dish
Bottle by the bed
I line you up
Like strangers in my head
Who do I wear that white dress for
Who do I live, who do I die for
Or do I just float
Face-down on the floor
[low vocal register] “I’m sorry, mom” [echoed ad-lib]
[Chorus]