Heart on my Sleeve - No longer Me

[Style:

Rap / Pop-rap with cinematic undertones

Emotional intensity, dynamic flow

Dark piano chords, strings, soft hi-hats building tension

Occasional vocal layering on hooks for impact]

[Theme:

Loss of identity, regret, mental spiral

Heart on your sleeve but feeling unseen

Searching for your “self” after fear and trauma]

Yeah…

I don’t even know who I am right now

Hands on my heart, but it don’t feel like mine

Mirror’s telling stories I don’t recognize

Eyes of a stranger staring back in disguise

Three years gone, still haunted by the loss

Everything I touch, it comes with a cost

Birth parents gave up, parents split, I sit and wonder why

Ex walked out, heart left in the sky

Now I’m with her, my light, my better half

But my mind keeps dragging me down this dark path

I fake it at work, smile like I’m fine

Managers call me Billy B when I snap, they don’t see inside

Laughs break the tension, but my soul still bleeds

Trying to do right, but the past plants seeds

Fear whispers loud, doubt screams even louder

Self-worth is low, and my confidence shatters

I pray, I read, I fight, I fall, I scream

But my identity’s gone, like a broken dream

I wear my heart on my sleeve, but it’s cold

The person I knew, I don’t even hold

Lost in the loops of regret and despair

Trying to breathe, trying to repair

No longer me, who am I supposed to be?

I’m standing here, but I can’t see

The boy I was, the man I wanted

Fighting fear, I feel haunted

No longer me, my past won’t let me free

But I’m still here, and I’ll find the key

Even if it hurts, even if I bleed

I’ll wear my heart, but I’ll reclaim me

Christmas felt cold, family distant, friends far away

I smile for them, but inside I sway

Mental battles, nights spent awake

Counting my faults, mistakes I can’t shake

Thought about disappearing, just for a while

But then I see her face, and I reconcile

With the fact I’m flawed, scared, yet alive

I’ll punch through the doubt, I’ll fight to survive

I’ve lost my grip on who I should be

But maybe that’s life, it’s part of the journey

I stumble, I fall, I spiral, I cry

I ask God for strength, I don’t know why

But the boy in the mirror, I’ll meet him again

Patch up the cracks, let the light in

I wear my heart on my sleeve, but it’s cold

The person I knew, I don’t even hold

Lost in the loops of regret and despair

Trying to breathe, trying to repair

No longer me, who am I supposed to be?

I’m standing here, but I can’t see

The boy I was, the man I wanted

Fighting fear, I feel haunted

No longer me, my past won’t let me free

But I’m still here, and I’ll find the key

Even if it hurts, even if I bleed

I’ll wear my heart, but I’ll reclaim me

Fear can hit, regret can bite

But I’ll get back up, even in the night

I’ll wrestle my shadows, I’ll swing for my soul

Heart on my sleeve, that’s how I’ll take control

No longer me, but I’ll find me

Through the pain, through the fear, I’ll remind me

I’m scared of me