Bleeding Through the Bandage

[Intro]
Face down in my phone again
Red eyes, typing out revenge
Hit send, then I hit erase
Same fight, just a different day (yeah)
[Verse 1]
I been screaming in a soft voice
Grin glued on, that’s a decoy
Heart heavy like a convoy
Skin buzzing, I’m annoyed
Punch holes in my own plans
Kick back at my own hands
Blame you for my bad past
Blame me then I backtrack (yeah)
[Chorus]
I been bleeding through the bandage
Can’t patch up the damage
All this hate under my jacket
All this pain under my habits
You say “calm down,” I panic
Turn love into static
I been bleeding through the bandage
Bleeding, bleeding, can’t stand it (oh)
[Verse 2]
Told my friends that I’m “all good”
Ghosted them, they all knew
Say I’m fine on the timeline
Then I crash at the drive-thru
Dark thoughts in a fast lane
Dry throat, heavy last name
You left, now it’s just blame
Big mask, tiny ash flame
[Chorus]
I been bleeding through the bandage
Can’t patch up the damage
All this hate under my jacket
All this pain under my habits
You say “calm down,” I panic
Turn love into static
I been bleeding through the bandage
Bleeding, bleeding, can’t stand it
[Bridge]
Why I hurt the ones who hug me? (why?)
Why I love the ones who cut me? (why?)
Why my comfort is the ugly?
Why your silence still undoes me?
[Chorus]
I been bleeding through the bandage
Can’t patch up the damage
All this rage under my lashes
All these tears on the mattress
You say “calm down,” I panic
Turn love into static
I been bleeding through the bandage
Bleeding, bleeding, I manage (barely)

rap, Moody trap/emo-rap with heavy Auto-Tune male vocals, distant piano and reversed pads over spacious, knocking drums and deep sub; verses start with clipped, aggressive triplet flows drenched in distortion then melt into melodic, mournful phrases, chorus widens with stacked harmonies and a ghostly choir patch, 808 slides and sparse hi-hats build urgency toward the final hook where ad-libs and doubles get raw and chaotic, emo, hip-hop, heartfelt, moody, sad