My life

Im tired of this life I live faking every smile. I keep pushing forward but it feels like I've walked 1000 miles. I'm hopeless in life, at school and at love bit atleast I can pray that god can help me find a perfect match. Im sick of living but scared of death and my love is gone like its been taken like ot was theft. I dont know what to do even though im blessed. My friends always fuck me over and this fucking life makes me stressed.

So I say fuck this life and all my friends. I'd rather die then lay on my bed. My love is all gone and my looks are fucked. I can atleast in heaven or hell say my life sucked. I know im blessed and shouldnt complain but I will still cry alone in the rain.

Sometimes when I'm alone I really fear death but I guess it a part of life. You never know what will come, it might be a hug or a sharp knife. My smiles are all fake and my laugh is dead. I try to have fun and do what I said. But when your motivation is gone its hard like hell. But even so I will never sell my soul.

So I say fuck this life and all my friends. I'd rather die then lay on my bed. My love is all gone and my looks are fucked. I can atleast in heaven or hell say my life sucked. I know im blessed and shouldnt complain but I will still cry alone in the rain.

I guess i'm done and this sums up my mind. In summary I wanna live and hopefully meet someone kind.