Livin my destiny not turnin out like it’s meant to be opportunities sent to me have been wasted blissfully. Ive been the epitome of self induced misery. How can this be? Im not lazy or crazy or in need of savin just desperately in need of somethin to go my way see I rise to the occasion lately not in the right location. applyin my skills just not at the right places got cards up my sleeve but their jokers and not aces. the heavens are mad at me. Im not in their good graces. need to control the chaos. Make it back to the greatness baby.
Say it to the mirror make it cold, real, certified dont condone the damage done it was never justified But draggin this pain forward makes the future suicide Say it till the guilt no longer gets to legislate I am not okay but I refuse to let that be my only way Evry part of me I buried I dig up reanimate because I love u I forgive u I believe in u completely starin at me in the mirror are the eyes that need to hear it and at night I hit my knees and bow my head to pray it but right now Ima look u dead in the eyes and say it.
I became a storm Walker bit of a shit talker takin things I shouldnt that I was never offered now Im at war with myself for shadily fillin my coffers and Im in desperate need of a truce to be proffered I dont need peace cause I know the storms will always rage. I just need to open my book to the right page. Embrace the chaos but dispel the rage make it to tomorrow knowin that I truly tried today.
Say it to the mirror make it cold, real, certified dont condone the damage done it was never justified But draggin this pain forward makes the future suicide Say it till the guilt no longer gets to legislate I am not okay but I refuse to let that be my only way Evry part of me I buried I dig up reanimate because I love u I forgive u I believe in u completely starin at me in the mirror are the eyes that need to hear it and at night I hit my knees and bow my head to pray it but right now Ima look u dead in the eyes and say it.
Mostly what I really need to say goes into the mirror cause that person needs to be saved and to hear it and know that I forgive him for leadin me astray and know that I love him despite bringin me to this hellish place know that Im still with him despite all that he thinks and know that the greatness baby is still waitin hasnt given up on me
Say it to the mirror make it cold, real, certified dont condone the damage done it was never justified But draggin this pain forward makes the future suicide Say it till the guilt no longer gets to legislate I am not okay but I refuse to let that be my only way Evry part of me I buried I dig up reanimate because I love u I forgive u I believe in u completely starin at me in the mirror are the eyes that need to hear it and at night I hit my knees and bow my head to pray it but right now Ima look u dead in the eyes and say it.
TGB Life! I love you I forgive you I believe you! Always!
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