A New Dawn

Yeah…

I used to think I’d find you in every sunset.

Now I think I was just afraid to look ahead.

I still drive past the places we used to go.

Not because I expect to see you there.

I think part of me just misses that version of my life.

The sky looks the same from a distance,

but it isn’t.

The clouds moved on.

The seasons changed.

And somehow I stayed standing in the same place,

holding conversations with memories.

You were the first person who made me feel understood.

That’s the part that’s hardest to replace.

The sky keeps changing colors.

I used to call every one of them your name.

Every sunset felt like losing you again.

I kept looking backward

like I could somehow arrive at yesterday.

But the horizon doesn’t work that way.

It only knows how to leave.

Then I met someone.

Not in some movie scene.

Just an ordinary day

when I wasn’t trying to heal anymore.

He laughs differently than you.

He listens longer.

And when I talk about the things that still hurt,

he doesn’t ask me to hide them.

Sometimes I feel guilty.

Like loving him means losing you twice.

But maybe that’s just what happens

when a heart finally starts opening again.

You were a storm I never wanted to end.

He feels more like daylight.

Not louder.

Not better.

Just warmer.

The kind that stays long enough

for flowers to grow.

The sky still changes colors.

Sometimes one reminds me of your eyes.

Sometimes a certain night brings everything back.

But not every song is about you anymore.

Not every prayer ends with your name.

I think that’s how I know I’m healing.

Because when I look at the horizon now…

I don’t see what I lost.

I see somewhere I haven’t been yet.

You’ll always be a part of my sky.

Just not the whole thing anymore.