Lyrics
[Verse 1]
I sit alone too long
Staring at the same four walls
Depression got its hands on me
PTSD in the halls
Anxiety won't let up
Turns my chest into a storm
Twenty-three years in uniform
Still I feel so worn
My marriage slipped through silence
And I hate what that became
I kept on trying to hold it
But the loneliness had names
[Pre-Chorus]
Now I'm down on my knees
Trying to breathe again
If I can't save myself tonight
Lord, meet me where I am
[Chorus]
Jesus, hold me close
When my mind won't let me go
Jesus, hold me close
You're the only peace I know
Hold me close
Hold me close
In the dark, don't let me fall
Jesus, hold me close
[Verse 2]
Two kids in Germany
Five years and counting now
I miss the way they used to laugh
I miss their little house
I was so far from them
Trying to be strong each day
But every mile got heavy
And the hurt would not go away
Johnsonville kept calling
Family held me through the night
When my strength ran out again
They reminded me of light
[Pre-Chorus]
Now I'm down on my knees
Trying to breathe again
If I can't save myself tonight
Lord, meet me where I am
[Chorus]
Jesus, hold me close
When my mind won't let me go
Jesus, hold me close
You're the only peace I know
Hold me close
Hold me close
In the dark, don't let me fall
Jesus, hold me close
[Bridge]
I don't have the perfect words
Just this broken heart and praise
If You can reach the bottom
You can meet me in this place
Heal the years I carried
Heal the room where I still cry
Bring my children back to my spirit
Teach me how to live alive
[Final Chorus]
Jesus, hold me close
When my mind won't let me go
Jesus, hold me close
You're the only peace I know
Hold me close
Hold me close
Through the wreck, through it all
Jesus, hold me close
Hold me close
Hold me close
My family, my faith, my home
Jesus, hold me close
Details
GeneratedJul 10, 2026
Duration4:27
LanguageEnglish
Style
Slow-burning R&B with trap-inflected drums and warm keys; half-time groove with elastic sub-bass, airy synth pads, and restrained clap snaps. Verse stays intimate and close-mic with sparse piano and finger snaps; pre-chorus opens with stacked harmonies and a rising filtered swell; chorus lands on a bigger beat with gospel choir support and short delay throws on the hook. Add subtle reversed swells, soft risers into each lift, and a tape-worn ambient bed. Mix is smooth, dark, and polished with a tender low-end glow., smooth, r&b, sad
Credits
Prompt byFadedPulse
ModelAria v5.5
Prompt
Sad smooth R&B melody with a little trap. I let depression, PTSD, and anxiety eat away at me. I sit by myself and think about life and my two kids in Germany that I have seen consistantly for 5 years. Retired 23 years from the army and the last few years I was alone. My marriage failed because of the lonliness, and all I have been able to do is turn to Jesus and my family in Johnsonville.
