[Verse 1]
I watched my mama fade away in that goddamn hospital bed,
Cancer chewed her up, spit her out, left me hollow instead.
Daddy drank himself to death, bottle by bottle, night after night,
Left me with his debts and his demons, no fuckin' end in sight.
My lover packed his shit and ran, said I was too broken to fix,
Took the dog, the truck, the ring—hell, even my last damn kiss.
Friends scattered like roaches when the lights came on too bright,
Left me screamin' in the dark, alone with my endless fight.
[Chorus]
I lost it all, every soul I ever held dear,
Everything I owned, washed away in rivers of tears.
Down to my own worthless hide, stripped bare and raw,
But the truth hits like a freight train, crashin' through the door:
All I needed to lose was this beat-up, broken life,
To save me from the monster starin' back in the night.
Fuck the world that kept me chained in this hellish game,
Should've ended it sooner, spared myself the shame.
[Verse 2]
House burned down in a blaze of bad luck and cheap-ass wiring,
Insurance laughed in my face, said I wasn't worth their time.
Kids I never had? Dreams crushed under poverty's boot,
Self-worth? That bitch died years ago, buried in the soot.
I clawed and scratched for scraps, beggin' on my knees,
But every hand that reached out just slapped me with more disease.
Mirror shows a ghost, eyes sunk in sockets of despair,
Whisperin' sweet nothings: "Jump, you coward, if you dare."
[Chorus]
I lost it all, every soul I ever held dear,
Everything I owned, washed away in rivers of tears.
Down to my own worthless hide, stripped bare and raw,
But the truth hits like a freight train, crashin' through the door:
All I needed to lose was this beat-up, broken life,
To save me from the monster starin' back in the night.
Fuck the world that kept me chained in this hellish game,
Should've ended it sooner, spared myself the shame.
[Bridge]
Why'd I hold on so tight to this rotting, festering cage?
Pain's my only lover now, rage my endless stage.
If I'd just let go, pulled the trigger, swallowed the pills,
I'd be free from this torment, no more fucking thrills...
[Steel Guitar Solo - (weeping pedal steel over sparse acoustic guitar — no vocals 20-second ballad-type instrumental solo: Slow, mournful steel guitar weeping over sparse acoustic strums, building tension like a noose tightening, no vocals—just pure, gut-wrenching emotion evoking isolation and finality)]
[Verse 3 - (slowing crying whispered emotional)]
Woke up every mornin' with a noose around my throat,
Chokin' on the memories, drownin' in the moat.
Lost my faith in God, that asshole never showed,
Left me cursin' at the sky, carryin' this load.
Body's a battlefield, scars from head to toe,
Mind's a twisted wreck, nowhere left to go.
But hindsight's a cruel whore, laughin' in my ear:
"Darlin', death was the answer, crystal fuckin' clear."
[Chorus]
I lost it all, every soul I ever held dear,
Everything I owned, washed away in rivers of tears.
Down to my own worthless hide, stripped bare and raw,
But the truth hits like a freight train, crashin' through the door:
All I needed to lose was this beat-up, broken life,
To save me from the monster starin' back in the night.
Fuck the world that kept me chained in this hellish game,
Should've ended it sooner, spared myself the shame.
[Outro]
(voice breaking)
It's now time I ensure all I need... to lose... is me...
(echoing, raw sobs, fading)
Fuck it all... I set myself free... (x2)
PrinceShawn
