[Verse 1]
Hands in my sleeves
Nails leave little secret lines
Count to four
Then eight
Till the shaking feels in time
Talk like I’m alright
Smile so wide it starts to sting
Say “I’m just tired”
While my head replays everything
[Pre-Chorus]
Every word I said last week
Looping like a broken tape
Did I hurt you
Did I fake it
Did I take up too much space
[Chorus]
I hit repeat on the worst parts
Like that’s all I deserve to see
Little cuts in a crowded room
Proof there’s something wrong with me
But when the song hits that one chord
I can breathe for a second more
I’m an invisible replay
Lying to everyone
Even I’m not sure
Who I’m fooling anymore
[Verse 2]
Strays at my door
They just curl up by my knees
They don’t ask why
They don’t flinch at what they see
Open up my phone
Type “I’m scared” then hit erase
Think I’m such a fraud
In this inside-out skin suit face
[Pre-Chorus]
Every laugh I ever faked
Echoes like a hallway chant
Do you really even love me
If you don’t know who I am
[Chorus]
I hit repeat on the worst parts
Like that’s all I deserve to see
Little cuts in a crowded room
Proof there’s something wrong with me
But when the song hits that one chord
I can breathe for a second more
I’m an invisible replay
Lying to everyone
Even I’m not sure
Who I’m fooling anymore
[Bridge]
Is there a world
Where I don’t check the lock five times (hey)
Where I don’t hide
Every jagged edge inside
Where I can say
“I’m not okay” out loud
And you don’t turn away
You just sit here through the sound
[Chorus]
I hit repeat on the worst parts
Like that’s all I deserve to see
But your name on my cracked screen
Keeps a little light in me
And when the song hits that one chord
I can breathe for a second more
I’m an invisible replay
But maybe with you here
I don’t have to be
Lying to everyone
Including me