Prompt / Lyrics
[Verse 1] Eight years old Counting tiles on the bathroom floor Putting every bottle Back where it was before Dad's voice sharp Like a doorframe to the head Learned to say "I'm fine" With my teeth instead [Pre-Chorus] I trace the numbers on my wrist Like a timeline carved in skin Every birthday candle lit Feels like someone else moved in [Chorus] It gets worse with every number Every year a heavier name Thirteen Seventeen Twenty They all taste the same Abuse in the rearview Addiction in the frame I am counting all the ages And I only count the shame I need help I need help But the words just never leave my mouth again [Verse 2] Sixteen hiding In a locked-up bedroom mess Lining all the pens Straight across the desk Swallowing the silence With a stranger’s little pills Telling every mirror "you are fine Sit still" [Pre-Chorus] Doctor writes a different script But the story stays the same Same black pit beneath the bed Just a different name [Chorus] It gets worse with every number Every year a heavier name Nineteen Twenty-three Thirty Blur into the same Abuse in the rearview Addiction in the frame I am counting all the ages And I only count the shame I need help I need help But the words just never leave my mouth again [Bridge] How do you say "I’m broken" When you’re scared they’ll Believe you? How do you reach For a hand When the touch might Undo you? I rehearse it In my head Til the sentences decay Then I smile Change the subject Throw the counting chart away [Chorus] It gets worse with every number Every birthday burns my throat Pile of empty orange bottles Like a crooked little moat Abuse in the rearview Addiction in the frame I am standing in the wreckage And I only know my shame I need help I need help But the sound dies halfway up my throat I need help I need help So I write it in this song And hope you know
Tags
Sparse piano ballad opening to raw female vocals, close and confessional. First verse almost a whisper, slight room reverb; pre-chorus adds soft pads and distant vocal doubles. Chorus swells with warm bass, subtle drums, and layered harmonies. Final section strips back to piano and a single fragile lead, ending on a held note that fades into silence., female vocals
Duration
4:12
Instrumental
No
Created
3/15/2026