Hook)
I’ve been tryna fade away slowly,
Feelin’ like the only one who really knows me.
Heart broke, yeah the pain gets holy—
Cut deep, but the scars still mold me.
Poppin’ outta dreams I don’t wanna fall back in,
Demons in my ear sayin’ “You’ll never win.”
Tryna run, but I trip on the past again,
Why the hell the dark feel just like a friend?
(Verse 1)
Lost in my thoughts, I’m drownin’,
Every single night, same mountains.
Tryna climb out but I slide right down,
Feelin’ like a king with a crooked crown.
I been pourin’ out pain, no limit,
Say I’m okay but I ain’t been in a minute.
Heart got cracks but I still try to fix it,
Love is a drug and I still wanna sip it.
Voices in my head keep loopin’,
Talk about life like “What are you doin’?”
Tryna find peace but the noise too loud,
Tryna find me but I’m lost in clouds.
I don’t wanna feel nothin’, but I feel it all,
Every little memory like a cannonball.
I don’t wanna break but I think I might fall,
Standin’ on the edge with my back to the wall.
(Hook)
I’ve been tryna fade away slowly,
Feelin’ like the only one who really knows me.
Heart broke, yeah the pain gets holy—
Cut deep, but the scars still mold me.
Poppin’ outta dreams I don’t wanna fall back in,
Demons in my ear sayin’ “You’ll never win.”
Tryna run, but I trip on the past again,
Why the hell the dark feel just like a friend?
(Verse 2)
Tell me why love turn cold so fast,
Tell me why good things never seem to last.
Tryna outrun what’s stuck in my chest,
Tryna heal wounds that never got rest.
Stars in the sky don’t shine the same,
Life got heavy, I forgot my name.
Pain is a teacher but it feels like shame,
Heart’s a fire but it lost its flame.
Lean in my cup but it don’t fix nothin’,
Hands on my face ‘cause the thoughts keep rushin’.
I been fightin’ myself, always end up blushin’,
Bleedin’ out truth but my soul stay hushin’.
Yeah, I know I’m messed up inside,
Still try to smile but it feels like a lie.
Tryna stay strong but I’m barely gettin’ by,
World so dark, I forgot how to cry.
(Bridge)
I keep fallin’,
But I swear I’m tryna get back up.
Hear ’em callin’,
But I close my eyes, it’s too much.
All this pain I clutch,
All this love I crush,
Been through so damn much,
Still I rise like dust.
(Hook — Outro)
I’ve been tryna fade away slowly,
Feelin’ like the only one who really knows me.
Heart broke, yeah the pain gets holy—
Cut deep, but the scars still mold me.
Poppin’ outta dreams I don’t wanna fall back in,
Demons in my ear sayin’ “You’ll never win.”
Tryna run, but I trip on the past again…
Guess the dark is the place I’ve always been.