[Intro]
Yeah, it's a heavy heart talkin' tonight, you know?
Deep questions, open wounds, just trying to understand
Listen...
[Verse 1]
God, why all these bad things happenin’? Is it punishment or a lesson?
Did I forget you back then, so now I’m facin' this depression?
Everything around me crumbles, brought to my knees, it's relentless
My life’s upside down, emptiness flows, I feel this weight so relentless
They don’t call no more, my kids think I left, but it’s just differences,
Me and their mother, tangled in past mistakes and defenses
Big B, I miss you, brother, lost you to the fast life, heavens,
Why, Lord, why? How could you let this happen, leave wounds so deep?
My women, they do me wrong, trust broken, promises I couldn’t keep
Is this all my life is? A trail of tears, secrets I couldn't speak?
If this is my fate, then Lord, just take me home, let my soul sleep
[Pre-Chorus]
Searching for answers in the silence, in the dark, I call your name
Craving truth, seeking peace, Lord, I’m tired of this pain
[Chorus]
God, why all this suffering? Is it just to make me stronger?
Or is this the punishment for the times I wandered, lost and wronger?
My world’s fallen apart, all I have are memories and questions
If this is my life, then just take me home, dead or alive, I’m restless
[Verse 2]
You took my brother, my soul feels broken, can’t find the light
The love I lost, the trust that’s gone, get me through the night
I cry out in the darkness, my heart heavy, weighed down by strife
Is this my destiny? Pain and loss, bogged in endless night?
Some say faith is a weapon, but it's hard when I’m f eelin' forsaken
Battling these doubts, these fears, these tears, can’t see no restitution
Every step I take, I wonder if I’m walkin’ in your direction
Or lost in the shadows, a victim of my own reflection
[Bridge]
Please speak to me, show me the way, I need your voice to answer anyway
Why do I keep fallin'? Why do I keep prayin' and prayin'? Oh, Lord...
[Outro]
If this is my path, then I accept what comes, just hold me close
Guide my soul, mend these wounds, help me find my hope
If this is my life, then take me home, I’m ready, Lord, I’m cope
But if you’re listenin', I need you to tell me—will I find my hope?