[Intro]
Teeth on the glass
Blood in my laugh
Smile for the crash
Yeah, I said it, I meant it (ugh)
[Verse 1]
I pin my fears
Like bugs on the wall
Name every one
Then I feed them my thoughts
Half-built plans
Rot in my notes app
I scroll through ghosts
They all type back
Blackout shades
Still the dark leaks in
I picked my poison
Then I called it a friend
You said “heal”
I heard “hide that shit”
So I stitched my grin
Over every split (yeah)
[Chorus]
Got a grin on the coffin
Dead inside but I’m talkin’
Every “I’m fine” feels rotten
Still I let you knock, then I lock it
If I crash, I crash on purpose
If I laugh, I laugh ’cause it hurts us
I’m alive but it’s all just circus
Painted face, but the bones still surface (hey)
[Verse 2]
I lost count
Of the times I folded
Fists in my hoodie
Heart barcoded
Pills in a row
Like teeth on a chain
I don’t even take ’em
I just like the pain
Phone on silent
But it still screams names
Every missed call
Is another old flame
You said “stay”
I heard “stay broken”
So I carved that phrase
In the door half-open (yeah, yeah)
[Chorus]
Got a grin on the coffin
Dead inside but I’m talkin’
Every “I’m fine” feels rotten
Still I let you knock, then I lock it
If I crash, I crash on purpose
If I laugh, I laugh ’cause it hurts us
I’m alive but it’s all just circus
Painted face, but the bones still surface (woah)
[Bridge]
If I vanish in the morning
Just assume I finally slept
If you see my name still glowing
That’s the messages I left
Every “love you” left on read
Is another stitch in my head
If you want the truth instead
I’ve been practicing being dead
[Chorus]
Got a grin on the coffin
Dead inside but I’m talkin’
Every “I’m fine” feels rotten
Still I let you knock, then I lock it
If I crash, I crash on purpose
If I laugh, I laugh ’cause it hurts us
I’m alive but it’s all just circus
Painted face, but the bones still surface (yeah)