[Verse 1]
Yeah
I been runnin' from the mirror, that’s a full-time job
Every time I get close, I start pullin' the plug
Push away the one person that was holdin' me up
Then cry about the fall like it wasn’t my luck
Empty room, echoes of your laugh in the walls
Same couch, but I’m sittin' like I’m five feet small
Scroll through old pics just to torture my soul
I did this to me, but I still blame it on “control”
[Chorus]
This is self-inflicted heartbreak
I built the bomb, now I’m standin' in the dark place
I break my own heart, then I call it fate
Say I’m hard to love, just to push you away
Now I’m lonely in a room that we both knew
Talkin' to the air like it’s still you
Can’t let go, so I hold on to the pain
Self-sabotage runnin' through my veins
[Verse 2]
I remember us, late nights, cheap food, dumb jokes
You would steal my hoodie, say it smelled like hope
I would change the subject when you asked how I cope
Turn every soft moment to a bad inside joke
I hate how I miss you but I hate me more
I rehearsed every flaw till you walked out the door
Now I replay fights like a highlight reel
Like if I spot the right frame it might help me heal
[Chorus]
This is self-inflicted heartbreak
I built the bomb, now I’m standin' in the dark place
I break my own heart, then I call it fate
Say I’m hard to love, just to push you away
Now I’m lonely in a room that we both knew
Talkin' to the air like it’s still you
Can’t let go, so I hold on to the pain
Self-sabotage runnin' through my veins