Still Don’t Feel Real

Verse 1
I remember sleepin’ on a mattress on the floor
Hearin’ arguments I couldn’t ignore
Mama cryin’ through a closed bedroom door
Swore to God I’d give her somethin’ more

Used to ride with the gas on E
Tryna make it to a place I’d be
Now the tank stay full, but it’s still that kid
Inside me askin’ what this life really is

They ain’t see all the nights I prayed
All the doubt that I hid away
All the times I almost gave up
But somethin’ in me just wouldn’t break

Pre-Chorus
Now they see me shine, they don’t know the cost
Every win got built from a loss

Chorus
And it still don’t feel real, I swear
All this money, all this air
I was down, now I’m way up here
But I still got pain I carry

Still don’t feel real sometimes
Look around like this life mine?
I got everything I said I’d get
But I ain’t feel finished yet

Verse 2
I done seen friends turn strangers quick
Over money, over petty things
Had to cut ties just to grow myself
Now my circle small but it’s everything

I don’t trust what they say, I watch what they do
Energy fake, I can see right through
They wasn’t there when the nights got cold
Now they act like they always knew

I remember days I ain’t eat much
Now it’s steak dinners, but I don’t rush
Still got habits from bein’ broke
Like savin’ everything I touch

Bridge
If it all fall down, I rebuild again
I done been through worse, I’ll win again
Every scar got a lesson learned
Every loss got a blessing in

Verse 3
I ain’t perfect, I still got flaws
Still got nights where I fight my thoughts
Still got ghosts from a past life
Still got dreams I ain’t chased enough

But I’m closer than I ever been
And I’m stronger than I ever was
If you knew what it took to stand
You would never question what I’ve done

Final Chorus (Extended)
And it still don’t feel real, I swear
All this money, all this air
I was down, now I’m way up here
But I still got pain I carry

Still don’t feel real sometimes
Look around like this life mine?
I got everything I said I’d get
But I ain’t feel finished yet

Cinematic emotional rap with piano and strings, deep storytelling, melodic hooks and reflective pain to success, male