Untranslated

I talk in pauses, you hear alarms

Every movement read as harm

My body feels borrowed, stitched in doubt

A map that never points me out

I flinch at light, I burn at sound

My thoughts don’t sit, they spin around

You ask me why I’m always tense

Try living without congruence

I’m not hostile, I’m overwhelmed

Every word I speak gets bent

You want clean lines, I bleed instead

Meaning lost inside my head

I’m screaming through reverb, can you hear me now?

Every truth I say gets swallowed by doubt

Misunderstood, mistranslated, misused

I speak in pain — it stays untranslated to you

You call it anger, you call it fear

I call it trying to still be here

Autistic nights, fluorescent days

Every social rule a maze

Bipolar skies above my skin

High-voltage hope, then nothing wins

Psychosis hums just out of frame

Like someone whispering my name

You say I’m dangerous when I break

But you don’t feel the noise I take

I’m not a threat, I’m not a lie

I’m just loud when I survive

You hear distortion, shut the door

I’m asking you to hear it more

Antisocial armor, narcissistic scars

Built from never being who you are

Borderline edges, I split in two

Trying to be kind and bulletproof

You diagnose me, then look away

When I ask you just to stay

I’m not your lesson, not your phase

I’m a life you won’t translate

Don’t reduce me to a warning sign

Don’t subtitle what’s already mine

I’m not an error in your tongue

I’m a language never learned

I feel too much, I feel too fast

I dissociate to make it last

I’m screaming through reverb, I won’t clean it up

This noise is the only voice I trust

Misunderstood, mistranslated, misused

Every part of me stays untranslated to you

I’m not cured, I’m not saved

I’m still breathing through the haze

I float above my name tonight

Like it never quite fit right

Your words echo, then dissolve

Questions I don’t have to solve

I blur, I fade, I separate

Still alive, but out of phase

Soft-focus heart, unfixed, unmade

I exist — untranslated