[Verse 1]
I used to walk in rooms and know why I came
Now I freeze in the doorway, blank mind, blank name
I used to hold thoughts like water in my hands
Now they slip right through like they’re scared of who I am
And everybody says, “You’re strong, you’ll rise”
But they don’t see the storm sitting heavy in my eyes
They don’t know the nights I whisper, “Lord, don’t let me drown”
’Cause the ground keeps shifting every time I turn around
[Pre-Chorus]
I’m losing pieces of myself I can’t retrieve
And the ones who should’ve held me were the first to leave
So I lean on the only One who’s never walked away
Even when my mind betrays me, He stays
[Chorus]
So I cry about it
Yeah, I cry about it
When the father I needed is gone from this earth
And the brothers I love are two thousand miles worth
And the man who vowed to guard me became the wound that hurt
So I cry about it
But God’s the One who stands around it
If breaking down is all I’ve got left
Then I’ll cry about it
Cry about it
[Verse 2]
I had a life once — a marriage, a plan
A future laid out like lines in the sand
But the tide came in, washed it all away
Left me praying for a soul who could see through the gray
Not to rescue me, not to fix my pain
Just to stand in the truth with me when I can’t explain
Someone steady, someone honest, someone who won’t run
While God does the healing only God gets done
[Bridge]
I ain’t worthless, though the mirror tries to lie
And the trauma in my body keeps asking why
But I hear Him say, “Child, I’m still your guide
Even when the world you trusted breaks from the inside.”
[Final Chorus]
So I cry about it
Yeah, I cry about it
’Cause losing your mind is a grief you feel slow
And losing your life is a truth you don’t show
But God is the shelter when there’s nowhere else to go
So I cry about it
Let the tears fall where the truth is loudest
If all I can do is breathe and break
Then I’ll cry about it
Cry about it
Till the pieces start to wake
[Outro]
I’m still here
Held by the One who never leaves
I’m still here
And maybe that’s the victory