Intro – Low hum, restless]
It doesn’t fade fast anymore.
[Verse 1]
I leave and it follows me home
Still buzzing under skin and bone
The shower runs, but it stays put
Like heat you can’t shake once you’ve been burned good
I sit, I wait, I count my breath
Tell myself this isn’t need — it’s rest
But quiet feels thin
Like something’s missing when I’m not in it
[Pre-Chorus – Uneasy awareness]
I don’t think about doing it
I think about not doing it
And that’s worse
[Chorus – Tense, looping]
There’s residual heat
It lingers in me
I don’t chase the act
I chase the relief
If I go back, it’s not desire
It’s just cooling down the fire
[Verse 2]
I replay moments I should forget
Not the end — the seconds before it
The look, the sound, the pause too long
That space where everything feels wrong
I tell myself this is normal now
After pressure, after release somehow
But each time it fades a little less
Each time I feel it in my chest
[Pre-Chorus – Short, sharp]
I don’t plan the next one
It plans me
[Chorus – Louder, more aggressive]
There’s residual heat
Under my skin
I don’t want more
I just want it gone again
If I return, it’s not desire
It’s maintenance
It’s putting out the fire
[Bridge – Breathing quickens, intrusive]
Just once more to settle it
Just once more to quiet it
Just—
Why isn’t it quiet yet?
[Final Chorus – Cracks in denial]
There’s residual heat
And it knows my name
I don’t feel whole
Until I feel the same
I don’t chase the act
I chase the peace
But the peace gets shorter
Every time it leaves
[Outro – Flat, dangerous calm]
I’ll sleep after the next one.
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