[Intro – Low pulse, controlled]
I needed to know.
[Verse 1]
I set the window wider than before
Told myself that’s not what it’s for
Same routine, different frame
Same face, different name
I slowed it down, felt the edge
Not crossed — just overread
I wanted proof, not thrill
Wanted to know if I still could
[Pre-Chorus – Tight, almost clinical]
This wasn’t impulse
This was control
I just needed to feel the limit hold
[Chorus – Cold confidence cracking]
This is a pressure test
I lean — I don’t fall
I press my thumb
Against the wall
If it cracks, that’s stress
Not obsession
I stop because I want to
Not because I’m done
[Verse 2]
I watched the clock and didn’t move
Waited longer than I needed to
Hands stayed ready, breath stayed low
Something else said don’t let go
I could’ve ended it clean right there
Instead I listened to the air
To the sound it makes when someone knows
They’re not leaving — not yet, not close
[Pre-Chorus – More strained]
I told myself this proves I’m fine
That stopping late is still on time
[Chorus – Louder, fractured rhythm]
This is a pressure test
I lean — I don’t fall
I push the edge
I feel the wall
If it bends, that’s stress
Not possession
I stop because I want to
Not because I can’t
[Bridge – Breathing, intrusive thoughts]
Now
Wait
Not yet
Just—
Why does stopping feel like theft?
[Final Chorus – Control slipping audibly]
This was a pressure test
And something failed
Not the plan
Just the scale
I didn’t break
I didn’t freeze
I just didn’t stop
When I said I would
[Outro – Quiet, unsettling]
I learned something tonight.
GrebullG
