[Verse 1]
I’ve been in my head all day
Running laps on the same old blame
Every look feels one step off
Like I showed up and took too much
I say “I’m fine” too fast
But my chest stays clenched like glass
Watching them get picked, get held
I stand there quiet, by myself
[Pre-Chorus]
And it hits so hard
When the room says “mine”
And I’m still outside
Staring at the line
[Chorus]
Not me, not me
That’s what it feels like
Not me, not me
Left out of the light
I want to matter too
I want a place to land
Not me, not me
But I’m still reaching your hand
[Verse 2]
I hate how small I get
When the thoughts start talking shit
Tell me I’m a weight to carry
Tell me I’m too much to keep
I read too deep, I miss the cue
Then I blame my heart for breaking through
Everybody else gets “yours”
And I’m just standing at the door
[Pre-Chorus]
And it hits so hard
When the room says “mine”
And I’m still outside
Staring at the line
[Chorus]
Not me, not me
That’s what it feels like
Not me, not me
Left out of the light
I want to matter too
I want a place to land
Not me, not me
But I’m still reaching your hand
[Bridge]
Maybe I’m not a burden
Maybe I’m just bruised
Maybe all this fear in me
Is louder than the truth
Say it back to me
Slow and plain
I don’t have to earn
A soft place to stay
[Final Chorus]
Not me, not me
That’s what it feels like
Not me, not me
Left out of the light
I want to matter too
I want a place to land
Not me, not me
But I’m still reaching your hand
Not me, not me
Please don’t let me fade
Not me, not me
I’m here, I’m here, I’m made