[Verse 1]
Same hoodie
Same block
Same sirens
Same shots
Skip school
Hit the corner
Had to hustle just to eat
That’s all I got
Mama gone
Daddy ghost
Little sis on the couch
Cold toast
Her backpack bigger than her back
I pack her lunch from scraps in a paper bag
Thirteen with a scarred face
Fourteen in the car chase
Looking at the sky like
“take me”
Walk home anyway
‘cause she still need me
I prayed every night to be gone
Then I’d hear her feet in my room at dawn
“Can you braid my hair?” so small
So I stayed in hell
Just to answer that call
[Chorus]
I was ready to die every day
But I stayed ‘cause she needed me to stay
From thug to a man
I ain’t plan this life
I just learned how to fight
Never run from the pain
I was ready to die every night
Heart so heavy
Couldn’t carry the weight
But I held her hand
That was my dedication
Turned all of my hate into something that could save us
[Verse 2]
Court dates like a new class
Probation ink on my past
Judge said
“Boy
You won’t last”
I said
“I can’t leave
She all I have”
Walk her past the same dudes I ran with
Same hands that I threw
Now I bandage
Work late
Eyes red
But I manage
Pocket change
But I stretch it like elastic
Little sis at the table
Doing math
Ask me
“When you growin’ up
Gettin’ past this path?”
I lie
“Soon
” but I’m scared inside
Still wake up every day wishing I had died
Then one day
I caught my own reflection
Not a kid
Just a man with a question
If I’m gone
Who tucks her in at night?
So I kill that wish and I choose this fight (yeah)
[Chorus]
I was ready to die every day
But I stayed ‘cause she needed me to stay
From thug to a man
I ain’t plan this life
I just learned how to fight
Never run from the pain
I was ready to die every night
Heart so heavy
Couldn’t carry the weight
But I held her hand
That was my dedication
Turned all of my hate into something that could save us
[Bridge]
Now she walk that stage in a cap and gown (hey)
I’m in the back
Tryna hold tears down
She see my tats
My past
My hands
Still she point and say
“That’s my man”
[Chorus]
I was ready to die every day
But I stayed ‘cause she needed me to stay
From thug to a man
I ain’t plan this life
I just learned how to fight
Never run from the pain
I was ready to die every night
Now I wake up and I’m glad I’m awake
‘Cause I held her hand
That’s my dedication
Turned all of my pain into proof that we made it