War in my mind

Verse 1]

There’s a storm inside my head, can’t see straight anymore

Every thought’s another war, crashing through the bedroom door

Clouded judgement, blurry nights, drowning in anxiety

Trying to fake a smile while this pain keeps killing me

I just wanna numb it all with a bottle in my hand

Maybe pills, maybe smoke, anything to understand

Why I feel so far away from the life I used to know

Why the darkness keeps on whispering, “Just let everything go”

So I push everybody out

Lock myself inside this house

Screaming without making sounds

While my whole world burns down

This pain in my head keeps pulling me under

Lightning in my veins, constant rolling thunder

There’s a darkness saying leave your work, leave your home

But my heart keeps begging me don’t let go

I’m pulling my hair while I scream inside

Trying to survive this war in my mind

And I don’t know how much more I can take

Before this broken soul finally breaks

I sit alone for hours staring at the wall again

Trying to fight these thoughts but they keep crawling in

Feels like I’m becoming someone I don’t recognize

A shadow of myself with exhausted bloodshot eyes

My marriage hanging by a thread while I’m losing sleep

Promises I swore forever now cut way too deep

I don’t wanna run away, I don’t wanna disappear

But the voice inside my head is the only thing I hear

And every night’s another fight

Trying not to lose my mind

Holding onto what I love

While falling from the sky above

This pain in my head keeps pulling me under

Lightning in my veins, constant rolling thunder

There’s a darkness saying leave your work, leave your home

But my heart keeps begging me don’t let go

I’m pulling my hair while I scream inside

Trying to survive this war in my mind

And I don’t know how much more I can take

Before this broken soul finally breaks

I’m trapped in a maze with no exit sign

Every second feels like I’m losing time

People say “be strong,” but they don’t understand

How it feels when your own mind ain’t your friend

Trying not to drown in this bottle temptation

Trying not to self-destruct from frustration

One side screams “run,” one side screams “stay”

I’m just trying to make it through another day

And if I disappear into silence tonight

Know I was fighting with all of my might

Trying to save my family while saving myself

From this darkness pulling me straight into hell

Final Chorus]

MASTER OF THE PAIN INSIDE MY MIND

Shredding the pieces I can’t redefine

Darkness calling but I still resist

Clenching my fists through the abyss

I’m pulling my hair while I scream alone

Shattered by battles nobody knows

Still holding on by a single thread

Fighting the voices inside my head

Can somebody hear me?

I’m screaming inside…

Can somebody save me

From losing my mind…