Past 20

Verse 1

Took a decision that will follow me forever

Every step I take, it pulls me down, I can’t sever

21 was a nightmare, a year full of scars

22, I’m still falling, counting all the stars

Am I okay? Am I fine?

Or just a shadow of a life that isn’t mine?

Pre-Chorus

I can’t breathe under this weight I created

Every day feels like a lie, I’ve debated

If there’s a way out, I can’t seem to find

Locked in this prison that lives in my mind

Chorus

I can’t believe I made it past 20 and I hate it

Every sunrise feels like a promise that’s faded

I look in the mirror, but the face isn’t mine

Just a stranger staring, wasting all my time

I wanna end me, but I’m scared of the fall

Hating my life, I can’t feel at all

Verse 2

Memories like chains, dragging me deeper

Regrets are my lullabies, they’re my only keeper

Every road I took led me to this place

Where every smile feels out of place

Am I dreaming, or is this hell?

A decision that broke me, no one can tell

Pre-Chorus

I scream but no one hears the sound

Invisible, I’m sinking, bound

By choices I made, by the lies I’ve told

By a future that feels so bitter, so cold

Chorus

I can’t believe I made it past 20 and I hate it

Every sunrise feels like a promise that’s faded

I look in the mirror, but the face isn’t mine

Just a stranger staring, wasting all my time

I wanna end me, but I’m scared of the fall

Hating my life, I can’t feel at all

Bridge

They say time heals, but I’m still bleeding

I smile in the light, but inside I’m pleading

Every breath I take feels like a mistake

Every heartbeat reminds me of what’s fake

Outro

21 broke me, 22 still burns

Maybe 23 will never return

I wanna end me, but I’m scared of the fall