[Verse 1]
You called out of nowhere
like nobody ever really leaves
I was burning dinner in the kitchen
watching rain slide down the screen
You said, “hey stranger”
and I laughed like that was funny
because nobody who knows you that well
gets to call you anything but memory
and suddenly
I was seventeen again
telling you everything
[Pre-Chorus]
You still knew
which silence meant something was wrong
I still knew
which version of “I’m fine”
meant don’t let me hang up yet
[Chorus]
Now I still almost send you things
songs at red lights
screenshots of stupid jokes
or that coffee creamer you liked
And every time it rains this hard
I still check my phone
like some part of me thinks
you belong to bad weather
or late nights
or every version of me
that never learned
how to leave things alone
[Verse 2]
We kept talking
like people standing too close to a fire
close enough to hurt
too cold to walk away
and honestly
I think we liked the burning
I saw your city on a highway sign last month
and it ruined my whole day
which felt dramatic
until I remembered
you used to be the first person
I told everything to
That kind of history
doesn’t leave cleanly
it settles under your skin
shows up uninvited
makes a liar out of healing
[Pre-Chorus]
You still know
how to sound like coming home
I still hate
how fast I forget
why I had to leave
[Chorus]
Now I still almost send you things
songs in the middle of the night
pictures of books you’d love
or dumb stuff that made me cry
And every time it rains this hard
I swear the whole world shifts
like grief is just love
with nowhere left to live
and you still exist
in thunderstorms
and interstate exits
and songs I skip in traffic
[Bridge]
Maybe we were just lonely kids
holding each other above water
maybe we confused being understood
with being saved
but God
sometimes I still miss you
like blood loss
slowly
then all at once
[Final Chorus]
So now you live
in rainstorms
and dashboard lights
and all the spaces
I thought time would fix
and every once in a while
something funny happens
before my brain catches up
I still reach for my phone
like home
which is maybe the problem
