[Verse 1]
I used to fill notebooks up with songs
Used to dance barefoot all night long
Had a laugh that filled up every room
Before I built my whole world around you
Started shrinking piece by piece
Just to keep you close to me
Didn’t even notice when
I stopped sounding like myself again
[Pre-Chorus]
I called it love for all those years
But love shouldn’t feel like fear
[Chorus]
Somewhere between loving you and losing me
I disappeared so quietly
Smiled through hell just to keep the peace
You sucked the life right out of me
Stopped writing, stopped singing songs
Stopped dancing when my hope was gone
Spent my whole damn life trying to believe
If I loved you enough you’d change for me
[Verse 2]
Spent my whole adult life pretending
Being someone else just to keep you staying
Every broken promise wore me down
Till I barely recognized myself now
I lost my fire, lost my smile
Kept holding on mile after mile
Trying to fix what I didn’t break
Giving more than anybody should take
[Bridge]
One night I got down on my knees
And begged God, please just rescue me
Take this weight off of my soul
‘Cause I can’t carry this alone
And I won’t apologize for how I healed
Or walking away from what you killed
You don’t get to break my heart to pieces
Then ask me why I couldn’t fix it
[Final Chorus]
Somewhere between loving you and losing me
I finally found the strength to leave
Now every scar reminds me
I survived what almost buried me
So I’ll start writing, I’ll start singing songs
I’ll keep dancing till my fear is gone
And I won’t spend one more day believing
It was my job to save you from your demons