reflexing in patience (maybe tell me what I need)
passively painting a portrait to (keep me strong in your dreams)
cerebellum cracked open (while those before me)
fall to their knees
picking ideas to orbit— ( i've mastered the pattern)
these issues spinning like stars ( of becoming what you need)
infinite problems (chameleon skin shifting)
roots fraying at (the edges)
my kindness has no limits (losing myself)
easy to take pieces (broken off)
easy to process (still unworthy)
still giving
i soothe your soul ( take from me)
make myself manageable (until I am nothing)
it's what comes naturally nothing—that's what
roots i can't shed ( i'm striving for)
i need to keep some proof (empty)
that i exist beyond (until my hands bleed)
what you need me to be grasping at nothing
those before me knew this the truth hurts you
they found themselves but i feel the pain too
on their knees let it echo
losing everything through us both
maybe i don't know what i am
maybe you're not what i need
but the pattern is mastered the portrait painted
and this is who i've become
## SPEED VERSE
quick flip the script now watch me shapeshift/
chameleon tactics with my soul on rapid transit/
cerebellum poppin' ideas while my patience is packed/
infinite kindness got me feeling like I'm under attack/
reflexing through portraits I passively paint/
morphing myself till there's nothing that remains/
you on your knees but I'm standing empty handed/
my roots exposed now watch how deep they're planted/
truth hurts worse than broken pieces scattered/
dreams worth keeping? that's what really matters/
orbit my issues like they're stars in my galaxy/
take advantage easy like it's some kind of strategy/
process the pain let it echo, let it resonate/
grasping at nothing till my fists bleed, can't hesitate/
natural-born shape-shifter, mastered the pattern/
limits of kindness stretched till they're about to flatten/
who am I really when the portrait's finally done?/
metamorphosis complete but at what cost I've won?
reflexing in patience maybe tell me what I need
passively painting a portrait to keep me strong in your dreams
cerebellum cracked open while those before me
fall to their knees
picking ideas to orbit— i've mastered the pattern
these issues spinning like stars of becoming what you need
infinite problems
strong in your dreams
cerebellum cracked open while those before me
fall to their knees
picking ideas to orbit— ( i've mastered the pattern)
these issues spinning like stars (of becoming what you need)
infinite problems (chameleon skin shifting)
roots fraying at (the edges)
my kindness has no limits (losing myself)
easy to take pieces (broken off)
easy to process (still unworthy)
reflexing in patience (maybe tell me what I need)
passively painting a portrait (to keep me strong in your dreams)
cerebellum cracked open (while those before me)
fall to their knees
picking ideas to orbit— ( i've mastered the pattern)
these issues spinning like stars (of becoming what you need)
infinite problems (chameleon skin shifting)
roots fraying at (the edges)
my kindness has no limits (losing myself)
easy to take pieces (broken off)
easy to process still
# FREESTYLE FLOW
Yeah, I'm shedding skins in seasons, changing colors for no reason
Adapting to your weather, patient beyond measure
Every piece I lose is treasure, giving till I'm empty pressure
Cracked my mind wide open, now these thoughts in orbit, floating
I'm the one who breaks to fit your mold
Soul stretched too thin, that's the truth untold
Knees to the floor—they found themselves, I'm told
But I'm still searching, my reflection growing cold
Envy those who know their shape
I'm just tryna find escape
From this endless pattern play
Where I bend but always break
See I painted what you wanted, crafted what you needed
But the real me is faded, my roots are now depleted
Unworthy? That's a feeling I created
Heart bleeding, still beating, never been sedated
I don't need your dreams to keep me going
Just need to find what's real and worth knowing
Tired of faces changing, roles rearranging
Authenticity's what I'm exchanging
For a seat at your table, another mask unstable
Striving for that nothing—yo, I'm finally able
To see beyond the portrait I've been trained to trace
Time to find my own damn shape and occupy my space
## SPEED VERSE
quick flip the script now watch me shapeshift/
chameleon tactics with my soul on rapid transit/
cerebellum poppin' ideas while my patience is packed/
infinite kindness got me feeling like I'm under attack/
reflexing through portraits I passively paint/
morphing myself till there's nothing that remains/
you on your knees but I'm standing empty handed/
my roots exposed now watch how deep they're planted/
truth hurts worse than broken pieces scattered/
dreams worth keeping? that's what really matters/
orbit my issues like they're stars in my galaxy/
take advantage easy like it's some kind of strategy/
process the pain let it echo, let it resonate/
grasping at nothing till my fists bleed, can't hesitate/
natural-born shape-shifter, mastered the pattern/
limits of kindness stretched till they're about to flatten/
who am I really when the portrait's finally done?/
metamorphosis complete but at what cost I've won?
when the performance ends
when the last layer peels away
will you still recognize me?
will I?
the canvas waits
for something true
[VERSE]
stripped down to the bone now, no more masquerading/
years of shape-shifting got my true self fading/
but underneath the rubble there's a heartbeat waiting/
authentic pulse beneath the lies I've been creating/
tired of the mirror showing faces that aren't mine/
crossing every boundary, never drawing lines/
giving pieces of my soul like I got time to waste/
but emptiness is bitter and it's all I seem to taste/
so here's my declaration, here's my final stand/
taking back my story with these bleeding hands/
no more easy processing, no more being manageable/
time to be impossible, time to be intangible/
[OUTRO]
the pattern breaks tonight
roots remember how to grow
in soil that's mine alone
chameleon skin shed
revealing what was always there—
raw, unpolished, whole
maybe that's what you need
maybe that's what I need
maybe that's enough
[FASTER]
I been bending backwards for so long my spine forgot what straight looks like/
accommodating every mood swing, every need, every fake invite/
to be somebody else's answer, somebody else's peace of mind/
while my own questions keep echoing, my own peace I cannot find/
see they want me flexible but never asked if I could break/
want me present for their problems but ignore the toll it takes/
I'm the therapist, the mirror, the solution and the cure/
but when I'm drowning in my own pain, suddenly they're not so sure/
if they got time to hold me down the way I held them up/
if they got energy to fill my always empty cup/
so I learned to swallow silence, learned to smile through the ache/
learned to put myself on mute so other people could relate/
but I'm done with being background music in my own damn life/
done with cutting out my heart to dull somebody else's knife/
done with shrinking to fit spaces that were never meant for me/
done with dimming my own light so others feel more free/
see authenticity is terrifying when you've been a ghost/
when you've been everyone's savior but never been the host/
of your own story, your own narrative, your own damn show/
when you been so busy giving that you forgot how to grow/
but growth requires breaking soil, requires pushing through the dirt/
requires standing in your power even when the truth might hurt/
so here I am, unfiltered, unprocessed, unrefined/
no longer seeking your approval, finally claiming what is mine/
my mistakes, my scars, my victories, my pain/
all the parts of me that make me beautifully insane/
you can take it or you leave it but I'm done with compromise/
done with wearing all these masks, done with all these lies/
this is me in all my glory, all my mess, all my might/
chameleon skin finally shed, stepping into my own light/
#Outro#
the pattern breaks tonight