Yeah I don’t even know why I try chasing a dream but honestly it’s more like a lie the more I search the less I find it’s not enough gotta be chasing these endless highs but they never bring peace of mind I’m losing all of my time running instead of living my life no it’s gonna be my demise if I keep running after all these lies cause they build me up just to break me down and it’s like… Why do I get built up just to go broke why do I fly high just to swoop low live in a castle but it’s not home when I’m the only one in these halls alone why do I build relationships just to let go burn down those bridges but I just get reminded by the smoke always adamant that I have to do things on my own why’s that I don’t know I don’t know… I’m in-in-in too deep questioning everything again can’t sleep all the pain to myself I keep no I don’t want people to know I’m weak but if I’m being honest it’s getting hard to believe getting hard to believe in me getting hard to believe in me in me ,cause one minute I’m going up up up then the next minute I’m going down down down one minute I’m flying high in the clouds and then all of a sudden I plummet to the ground my self confidence nowhere to be found one minute I’m sitting on my throne feeling proud but then I throw away my pride throw away my crown now I’m in my pool of misery about to drown this bipolar state got me going around and around yeah… Why do I get built up just to go broke why do I fly high just to swoop low live in a castle but it’s not home when I’m the only one in these halls alone why do I build relationships just to let go burn down those bridges but I get reminded by the smoke always adamant that I have to do things on my own why’s that I don’t know I don’t know… running but I always end up at the same place I write some happy stories in my life but then I just erase yeah you can see the weariness on my face but I still continue to chase things that aren’t worth it things that are fake for them I give whatever it takes yeah it’s like I get fixed up just to break just to break,yeah just to break again yeah it’s like I’m losing to win it’s like I rise so I can just descend I stop everything just so I can re-begin screw up just so I can amend when is it gonna stop when is gonna end,all these stops and go’s all these cons and all these pros all these yes’s and all these no’s all this building up just to go broke just to go just to go broke…. Yeah why do I get built up just to go broke why do I fly high just to swoop low live in a castle but it’s not home when I’m the only one in these halls alone why do I build relationships just to let go burn down those bridges but I get reminded by the smoke always adamant that I have to do things on my own why’s that I don’t know I don’t know yeah go broke
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