Complications

Sometimes you lose yourself

Trying to hold on to everything else.

And sometimes rock bottom

is the first place you finally hear your own voice.

I been waking up tired in a house full of dreams,

Looking in the mirror, don’t recognize me.

Had a heart full of plans, now it’s cracks in the seams,

Funny how you lose yourself trying to chase what you need.

I watched some things fade that I swore would stay,

Watched pieces of my life disappear day by day.

Had my hands on the wheel but I lost my way,

Kept telling everybody “I’m good” while I faded away.

Depression got a voice, and it knows my name,

Tells me I’m a failure, tells me I’m to blame.

Every mistake I made got a seat at the table,

Every night I couldn’t sleep had me questioning if I’m able.

But I got two little reasons waiting at home,

And a woman who still loves me when I’m barely holding on.

So I wipe my eyes before I walk through the door,

‘Cause my kids don’t need a perfect man—

they need their father more.

I lost myself somewhere along the way,

Lost some things I loved, watched some people change.

Had to hit the bottom just to finally see,

Everything I was looking for was buried inside of me.

So I’m building it back, brick by brick,

Learning how to live with the life I was given.

I might bend, I might break, I might fall sometimes,

But I’ll be there for my family till the day I die.

Yeah, I’m building it back.

I’m building it back.

I ain’t gonna lie, I’ve been scared of the future,

Scared that the man I was ain’t the man I should be.

Scared my children might remember my worst days,

Instead of every time I got down and found a new way.

So I’m learning how to talk when I wanna shut down,

Learning that being strong ain’t never making a sound.

Sometimes strength is saying, “Man, I need some help,”

Sometimes loving your family starts with saving yourself.

I lost money, lost time, lost pieces of my pride,

Lost sleep counting every failure I kept locked inside.

But I gained something back every time I survived,

A little more faith, a little more fight.

And my wife sees the man underneath all the scars,

She knows every battle I don’t talk about in the dark.

When I feel like I’m nothing, she reminds me who we are,

And I swear I’d walk through hell just to get back to her heart.

I lost myself somewhere along the way,

Lost some things I loved, watched some people change.

Had to hit the bottom just to finally see,

Everything I was looking for was buried inside of me.

I lost money, lost time, lost pieces of my pride,

Lost sleep counting every failure I kept locked inside.

But I gained something back every time I survived,

A little more faith, a little more fight.

So I’m building it back, brick by brick,

Learning how to live with the life I was given.

I might bend, I might break, I might fall sometimes,

But I’ll be there for my family till the day I die.