VOICE A (Surface Self):
I hate that I still want what ruins me
VOICE B (Remembering Self):
Say it
VOICE A:
I hate that I still want it
VOICE B:
I know
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VOICE A:
I prayed last night and meant every word
Then woke up wanting the same old things
VOICE B:
That didn’t surprise Me
VOICE A:
That scares me
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VOICE A:
What if this is who I really am?
Not the songs, not the prayers
Just this
VOICE B:
You’re describing the wound, not the name
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VOICE A:
I get angry over nothing
I carry lust I won’t confess
I love people until they touch my pride
VOICE B:
You’re not hiding that from Me
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VOICE A:
Then why do I still feel like I am?
VOICE B:
Because shame is loud
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VOICE A:
What if grace has a limit?
What if I finally cross it?
VOICE B:
It was crossed once
VOICE A:
That’s not what I meant
VOICE B:
I know what you meant
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VOICE A:
I don’t trust my heart
VOICE B:
Good
VOICE A:
Why would You say that?
VOICE B:
Because your rest was never meant to live there
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VOICE A:
I read the words
I sing the truths
But I still feel like I’m on trial
VOICE B:
The verdict didn’t wait for your feelings
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VOICE A:
What if I fall again tomorrow?
VOICE B:
Then tomorrow I’m still here
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VOICE A:
You say that now
VOICE B:
I said it then
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VOICE A:
When?
VOICE B:
Before you ever tried to fix yourself
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VOICE A:
I don’t know how to change
VOICE B:
You were never asked to resurrect yourself
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VOICE A:
Then what am I supposed to do with all this?
VOICE B:
Bring it closer
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VOICE A:
Even this part?
VOICE B:
Especially this part
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VOICE A:
I’m afraid You’ll leave when You see everything
VOICE B:
I stayed because I saw everything
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VOICE A:
So why do I still feel alone?
VOICE B:
Because feelings lag behind truth
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VOICE A:
Then stay until they catch up
VOICE B:
I never left
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