I can love only me

Who am i? 
The identity I once held, gone,
The eyes that meet me in the mirror, foreign,
Laughter once rising, silent,
The confidence I carried, forgotten,
Choices once mine, now vacant.

Darkness diving deeper into my soul,
Stealing the joy that once lived within these walls,
Doubt reigning over my truth,
Fear overpowering love,
Until only resentment plagues my mind.

I can see clear now,
And this truth shakes me to my core,
A love so fierce, yet simply misplaced,
Knowing that to stay would drown us both,
Sinking us deep beneath the sea.

I love you deeply,
With every fragile piece of my heart I own,
But when the sun rises tomorrow,
I can choose only myself,
For I cannot bear to carry us both,
And lose me in the weight of our reckless love.

In my choice, I find my peace,
A love for myself now softly flows,
Confidence returns, like a bird returning home,
Laughter fills the space where silence once lived.

Yet in the stillness, your memory remains,
Whispering moments, i can’t unsee.
The distance of all these months
Still crawls through the shadows and grips my bones.