Lost

I been running from my past but it keeps haunting me. The pain i feel inside is why i walk with these, demons i been feeling complacent. Lost inside a maze jus waiting amazement. All my demons creeping out they keep on rising from the basement. All the damage to my lungs from smoking might need replacing. All the drugs i take to cope thru most the pain. The evil thoughts of suicide slowly running laps inside my brain. Think i been going insane. The way my skeletons in my closet creep up out the coffin. Must have been a minute since we last spoke i miss yo fuckin coughing. I swear being an insomniac truly suck thats why I’m so exhausted. Keep the melodies of all my heart i put dem in tha box then. Wrap it up tight. Ian tryna fight. Might jus lose my mind. Think im stuck up inna bind. Lost inside an abyss where theres no time or tellin. If im lost inside the shine that just keeps on glistenin. I always seem to scream nobody listening. I done lost so many loved ones swear iss not gone work. I done been thru so much pain thats y my feelings hurt. Might jus go berserk. Lost between the thoughts of moving on before i leave this earth. Hope when i die my soul will finally leave the dirt. Keep on playing wit my feelings somone gone end up hurt. Numb all my pain with all the smoke iss like iss too damn foggy. Surrounded by my demons i cant get em off me. I keep living barely breathing they say im a dead man walking. But i don’t understand the judgement i have so they jus keep on sulking. My world gone keep revolving. Ian talking bout revolvers. 6 shots to the head thats how they went and offed him. I been dripped out I’m leaking like a fuckin faucet. Splashing onna ground might jus cause a moshpit. Took a dub to the club and damn near tripled it. Heard he murked who?, u hearing different shit. He be talking off dem yerks. He might jus end his life before it began. All the diamonds on my neck cost a bit more than yo couple grand. Like bitch i am the man. Got too many screws loose smoke up high like peter pan. Stuck in first gear my tires spinnin iss like im stuck in sand. Ain’t lookin for no hand. Outs. Whatchu really about. I put 10k on his head lets get em weeded out. Got him handled now they feening now. Causing a drought. I be moving in silence so we can thug it out.