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Verse 1
I was the quiet when you came home breaking
The ear that listened after every bad day
I held your sickness like it was my own pain
Tried to pull the hurt right out of your veins

I rocked our child while you chased your demons
Sat in a house alone looking at the door while you steady leaving 
They said we were three, but I lived like two 
Just waiting on you

Pre-Chorus
You said, “Be patient, baby, just wait and see”
But waiting felt like begging on my knees

Chorus
I waited for love you said would come
Like it wasn’t supposed to be free
I begged for time, not money or things
Just wanted you here with me
Now you call me the villain for bleeding out loud
Like I wasn’t the one who stayed
How did you turn this around on me
When you’re the one whos constantly walking away?

Verse 2
Christmas morning, paper on the floor
She smiled while you rushed and stared out the door 
I watched her open every dream alone
In a house that once did feel like home

Your words cut deeper than any hand
I wish you had left bruises that would heal slow

But you left them inside where they stay and grow 
You changed into someone I don’t even know
Then blamed me for the pain you caused me

for what you broke

Pre-Chorus
You say I’m crazy, say I’m confused
But I learned this pain from loving you

Chorus
I waited for love you said would come
Like it wasn’t supposed to be free
I begged for time, not money or things
Just wanted you here with me
You chose the world

People , work, trucks , drugs is what you loved

What you always put before us 
Then said this is all my fault
How can you be so blind to the truth
When you built this ? What you thought was mean was me begging to be heard to be seen

Bridge
You promised you’d never take from me
But every fight you took it all
Used the roof, the keys, the things you said I’d never have to worry about 
Just to make me fear and shut my mouth 
I came from nothing, you knew that truth
And still you held it over my head, how you saved me from the bottom , and if it weren’t for you I’d be dead, but how was any of that out of love, if you’re treating it like it’s a debt

Like I owe you , and I have done nothing

How your gods gift to me and I’m the burden and pain in your head. 
Tell me how I’m the monster now
For finally saying what I said

Break (soft)
I begged to be heard
I begged to be seen
I begged to feel important
In the life you promised me

Final Chorus
I waited for love you said would come
Now I’m done waiting in pain
You don’t get to call me the villain
For reacting to your actions that’s insane 
This wasn’t confusion, this wasn’t a lie
You created the war you’re in
And I’ll carry our child and my truth
While you wonder where I went , you shouldn’t be the one confused wondering where it all went wrong, I needed you and you were the one always gone, not answering one single phone call

Outro
I waited for love

I waited for the love I gave

I waited for the promises you made

I waited for you to love me like I loved you