False promises

It's kinda hard to see,

Us as family.

When we are all worlds apart

I don't care you all take one look,

And judge this book.

Not turning the pages.

But looking at the cover.

In your eyes

I amounted to nothing less than

A struggling brother

With the mental and physical abuse

He sustained from his mother.

Well at least she calls

Just to wonder how I'm doing.

i got sober.

i found shadows i didn't ask for.

i found wounds i wasn't looking for.

getting clean ,

didn't give me my life back.

it handed me the pieces

Of this broken puzzle,

And told me to put it back together.

to build a new one.

Yeah I fell down, been locked in a cell

I have been distracted

Forgetting who I was

Others who's lives were impacted

From telling the lies

And making false promises

I wish my insecurities were not so fond of us.

My mental state is like don't go.

choose to stay; not for me, not for them,

but for the version of you you haven't met yet.

Why do I keep dreaming about

Being part of this family.

We're done, been done, and I still think about you all every single day

You left me questioning myself, doubting my worth, and wondering if I was the problem.

But the truth is, I just wanted to feel seen,

valued, and not ignored.

Not anymore.

i got sober.

i found shadows i didn't ask for.

i found wounds i wasn't looking for.

getting clean ,

didn't give me my life back.

it handed me the pieces

Of this broken puzzle,

And told me to put it back together.

to build a new one.

Yeah I fell down, been locked in a cell

I have been distracted

Forgetting who I was

Others who's lives were impacted

From telling the lies

And making false promises

I wish my insecurities were not so fond of us.

My mental state is like don't go.

choose to stay; not for me, not for them,

but for the version of you you haven't met yet.

So ride those high horses to the end.

I'll remain in the life I'm in

Now, I'm done waiting. I'm stepping back... not out of anger, but for the sake of my own peace against

You'll live your life, I'll live mine.

And one day, you'll realize exactly what you lost when I finally walked away.

And claimed a life I was meant to find.

i got sober.

i found shadows i didn't ask for.

i found wounds i wasn't looking for.

getting clean ,

didn't give me my life back.

it handed me the pieces

Of this broken puzzle,

And told me to put it back together.

to build a new one.

Yeah I fell down, been locked in a cell

I have been distracted

Forgetting who I was

Others who's lives were impacted

From telling the lies

And making false promises

I wish my insecurities were not so fond of us.

My mental state is like don't go.

choose to stay; not for me, not for them,

but for the version of you you haven't met yet.

So ride those high horses to the end.

I'll remain in the life I'm inNow,

I'm done waiting.

I'm stepping back...

not out of anger,

but for the sake of my own peace