[Verse 1]
Used to crave the chaos
Chasing little highs, calling that life
Now I’m side‑eyeing my phone when it lights
Airplane mode more than I fly
Friends turn to favors
Every call, another weight on my spine
Smile in the pics, but I’m lying
Lost in the noise, I’m tired of trying (so tired)
[Chorus]
Never wanted peace like I do right now
I’m worn out, I’m poured out, I’m praying somehow
‘Cause some love is heavy, some days just drain me
I just want quiet where it don’t betray me
Never wanted peace like I do right now
If you ain’t here to heal me, don’t come around
I’m saving my strength for the ones who save me
Yeah, some stuff is so draining
[Verse 2]
I been saying “yeah” when I mean “no”
Playing therapist for people I don’t know
They vent, then vanish
Leave me with the ashes, I choke on the smoke
I miss my own voice
Can’t hear my thoughts in the crowd that I keep
Loyal to a fault till I fall, then they leave
So I’m locking my door, finally choosing me (yeah)
[Chorus]
Never wanted peace like I do right now
I’m worn out, I’m poured out, I’m praying somehow
‘Cause some love is heavy, some days just drain me
I just want quiet where it don’t betray me
Never wanted peace like I do right now
If you ain’t here to heal me, don’t come around
I’m saving my strength for the ones who save me
Yeah, some stuff is so draining
[Bridge]
I cleared my room
I cleared my calls
Cut a few ties
Caught my fall
It hurts to outgrow
People you fed
But I’d rather feel loss
Than feel this dead (uh)
[Chorus]
Never wanted peace like I do right now
I’m worn out, I’m poured out, I’m praying somehow
‘Cause some love is heavy, some days just drain me
I just want quiet where it don’t betray me
Never wanted peace like I do right now
If you ain’t here to heal me, don’t come around
I’m saving my strength for the ones who save me
Yeah, some stuff is so draining