Just like you

I can still remember the time when I begged for love. I lost my colors. I settled for the "maybe", the "I'll see if I can" and the "I'm tired". I endured the pain of every no, and over time I started to believe that maybe, just maybe, that's what I deserve. That I should just be grateful for the rare "yes" and just sit in the corner waiting.

losing you

didn't just break ne.

it rewired me. reshaped me.

rearranged the way i exist.

you are gone now.

but the universe keeps putting you in front of me.

Sometimes I wonder what it feels like to live instead of just survive. A day where life feels calm, and I don't have to fight so hard to feel alive. But the love that pulled you into this darkness of Self cannot be consumed; it is unconstitutional. So don't give in, don't give up. Because of you I just feel stuck.Oh, fuck, what am I to do. I won't just give up. I won't be just like you.

It's a tough pill to

swallow, but sometimes we set ourselves up for disappointment. Never in my life have I faked

"I MISS YOU" OR "I LOVE YOU". you gave me half love and I still managed to break all the way through. i know the shape of wounded things. i know how to sit with shadows. your monsters are safe with me. i do not fear the dark inside you.

losing you

didn't just break ne.

it rewired me. reshaped me.

rearranged the way i exist.

you are gone now.

but the universe keeps putting you in front of me.

Sometimes I wonder what it feels like to live instead of just survive. A day where life feels calm, and I don't have to fight so hard to feel alive. But the love that pulled you into this darkness of Self cannot be consumed; it is unconstitutional. So don't give in, don't give up. Because of you I just feel stuck.Oh, fuck, what am I to do. I won't just give up. I won't be just like you.

To breathe without the pressure of yesterday. To exist without the constant fear of what might go wrong.

I don't want a perfect life. I just want a break from survival mode

A day where life feels calm,

losing you

didn't just break ne.

it rewired me. reshaped me.

rearranged the way i exist.

you are gone now.

but the universe keeps putting you in front of me.

Sometimes I wonder what it feels like to live instead of just survive. A day where life feels calm, and I don't have to fight so hard to feel alive. But the love that pulled you into this darkness of Self cannot be consumed; it is unconstitutional. So don't give in, don't give up. Because of you I just feel stuck.Oh, fuck, what am I to do. I won't just give up. I won't be just like you.