Thought by now

I used to be,
That ride or die, that fight or fly
Type of guy. 
Who wouldn't think twice 
About running you over.
Peace built from the pain
the high that wrecked me, 
the ache that finally woke me, 
the reason you should not provoke me
I hate when people try to test my crazy
I'm quiet, not soft. 
Don't get it twisted.
I am, what the fuck you are not.
I give what I want 
and taken everything I got.
[Pre Chorus]
Everyday I do my best to remember,
This life I live. Wasn't fucking given to me. It was fucking earned. From the blood and sweat  wish i didn't care this much, but i do. maybe that's the problem. because love shouldn't feel one-sided, and waiting shouldn't feel endless. sometimes the silence says more than the words you never said.
[Chorus]
i thought by now the scars would fade. 
i thought by now i'd be remade. 
i thought by now i'd leave the dark.
but i'm still here and 
the only thing i'm good at 
is falling the fuck apart.
i faced
what i ran from. 
i named what i hid. 
i felt what i buried.
all of it destroyed me. 
all of it freed me.
both were necessary.
Actions prove who someone is, 
words just prove 
who they pretend to be.

[Verse]
I apologize when I'm wrong.
I do not apologize when I'm provoked.
You lit the match, now eat the fire.
So sorry for being crazy 
while you were treating me like shit..
that's my bad. 
I'll never forget screaming so hard it felt like something inside me actually tore. 
That was the moment I promised myself: 
never again will I let anyone take me to that breaking point.
[Pre Chorus]
Everyday I do my best to remember,
This life I live. Wasn't fucking given to me. It was fucking earned. From the blood and sweat  wish i didn't care this much, but i do. maybe that's the problem. because love shouldn't feel one-sided, and waiting shouldn't feel endless. sometimes the silence says more than the words you never said.
[Chorus]
i thought by now the scars would fade. 
i thought by now i'd be remade. 
i thought by now i'd leave the dark.
but i'm still here and 
the only thing i'm good at 
is falling the fuck apart.
i faced
what i ran from. 
i named what i hid. 
i felt what i buried.
all of it destroyed me. 
all of it freed me.
both were necessary.
Actions prove who someone is, 
words just prove 
who they pretend to be
[Bridge]
for the first time i saw myself
and what i'd done,
It didn't cure me.
it revealed the mess I made.
The price I paid.  
To bend over backwards 
In this bed I made.
[Pre Chorus]
Everyday I do my best to remember,
This life I live. Wasn't fucking given to me. It was fucking earned. From the blood and sweat  wish i didn't care this much, but i do. maybe that's the problem. because love shouldn't feel one-sided, and waiting shouldn't feel endless. sometimes the silence says more than the words you never said.
[Chorus]
i thought by now the scars would fade. 
i thought by now i'd be remade. 
i thought by now i'd leave the dark.
but i'm still here and 
the only thing i'm good at 
is falling apart.

Metalcore, Celtic, numetal, punk, live