Destructive criticism

You wanna know something new see this as it is and try to turn it to something new love yourself create a wrong type of world of peace within your own destruction. How is it fair for people to hate you but when you hate yourself, it’s a sin wanting to die when others are wishing it and wanting it how is that fair? Is this God‘s destructive criticism people tell you you’re not living life to its fullest but how can I when a loaf of bread cost as much as an eye on the black market you see life is not free when everything cost a nickel and a dime you’ll never be free. They say everything around you is held hostage like your brain on drugs and I’m not meaning the drugs you get from the streets, but the ones that doctors push down your throat for you to be happy and carefree question this is this the life. God wanted for us when the government is taking control of the things we love, and so many people are dying on the side because of how selfish they are. is this god‘s destructive criticism people come running back and they say how proud they are of how far you’ve came but they were the wrong causing the destruction of your brain mama saying look at how big you are should I take that as an insult or should I take that as a compliment I don’t know anymore in this world where every little thing offends people you can’t say you’re fine without people assuming you’re sick you can’t say you’re doing pretty well because people assume you’re rich is this God‘s destructive criticism or is this just me not wanting to believe that there’s evil in this world when I was young I was blinded by my innocence. Is this God’s destructive criticism people telling you you’re not living your life to its fullest but how can I how can I when there’s so much evil in this world?

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